I'm at Changi Airport now, waiting for my next take off at 7.50pm. There is no turning point and this feeling is exactly the same as when I stood in front of a Marathon staring line. That recall Singapore Standard Chartered Marathon 2005, I was not quite sure what was I doing there and why did I do that? And now, I'm also not quite sure what am I doing now and why do I do this?
Well, make things clear... I'm departing for New Zealand, for Work and Holiday. How long? I'm not sure and it depend. It is winter now, the city that I'm touching down, Christchurch having temperature range from 0 to 10 degree celsius, it should be fine as I've stayed in this freezing weather before at Everest Base Camp. But this time is different, I got to stand it for entire winter till after August. My family is worry about me, can I stand the cold? My boy friend is even worrier, with my no-fat body and still hoping going outdoor for cycling.
My dream plan is to cycle touring around NZ from North to South or the other way. But now I've to keep this plan aside, and I feel sucks about it because I'm missing Buck. I've no idea what will the condition be of riding in winter around the wild NZ? To be short, I'm, chicken-ing :( I normally don't afraid of challenges, but one thing I always respect to is the Power of Nature, weather is one of them. The realistic told me to hold on my cycling plan until I'm prepared technically and geographically (I think just an excuse la... hehe)
Anyway, even just traveling, it took a lot of courage and consideration to make the decision. It is a totally change of lifestyle, and everything, You need to put everything aside and do something unpredictable that might cause you loose those hard earning career and existing lifestyle. Some people (I mean most people) think this is crazy! For a 31-years-old woman, she should be married and having a happy family and grown career, but now she quit her job, going to a stranger's land and live there alone.
I do not know is this called crazy or there is another more suitable term/description to describe this. What I knew is, a new chapter of my life has just began, I need a change, to see the world, and let the world see me!