星期五, 10月 27, 2006

7th Annual Mountaineering Trip: Forever Pain

It was the OX’s 7th Annual Mountaineering Trip, destination was Korbu-Goyong-Yong Belar, the Trans-Titiwangsa via Tanjung Rambutan. A team formed by 5 of us was having very high spirit and excited about the expedition which have been looking forward long time ago. However, we DID NOT make it. It was a total failure! We had been waiting for another group for more than 9 hours but the group did not turn up, we left the place and return at 3.25pm.

We left with the greatest pain in our heart, followed by the shame, the disappointment and the resentment which will never be forgettable and forgivable. The tragedy already written into OX’s history, the 7th Mountaineering Trip, was NIL.

How it happened?
The route from Ulu Kinta to Gunung Korbu has been changes for some times, none of us has confident to go by the new route, the Senai Trail without a guide. However, it is not worthwhile to pay a large amount of money and share by 5 of us for the guide just to lead us for the Senai Trail where we do not really need him after reaching Korbu.

When we knew that one of our friends is joining a group with size of 16 to Korbu by hiring a guide, we were thinking to share the guide with them, and lastly the agreement has been set orally via our friend, and this meant a ‘Promise’, too.

The mistakes begun here…
The reasons of making it a failure were so insulting.

I have no doubt to say 5 of us are experienced climbers, among us, there were 2 who have been in mountaineering for more than 10 years. Kam Meng started to plan the trip months ago, when the team was formed, the mission to Trans-Titiwangsa was as firm as the mountain, our commitment was as strong as the gravity.

Mistake #1:
There was no any formal conversation or agreement made between the leaders from 2 teams. We were just passing and getting the message via our friend, we don’t even know what the background of our friend’s group is. We don’t know how good are they, how serious are they, how matured are they? Eventually, they played a fool to us…

Mistake #2:
As all of the Malaysians knew, the Deepa-Raya eve would have terrible jam at the NS Highway. Though the 2.5-hour drive to Ipoh could be delayed to 4-5 hours, we departed for north at 1.30am and we also knew that the group supposed to depart the same time with us. But I wonder why they delayed until 2.30am still in Damansara, KL?

Okay, they were late, the traffic was bad. We were agreed to meet each other at Tanjung Rambutan, 5.30am. Next, they missed the time agreed with the 4WD driver, and the driver left them behind (but the driver said his 4WD was broke down?) after picking us to the starting point (we got to know that we both hiring the same 4WD driver).

They were 1-2 hours late, but the consequence was, it made them 8-9 hours late.

Mistake #3:
2 teams, 2 visions. They never understand our position, they never know how serious we are for the trip, they never how meaningful is the 7th anniversary, they never know a little mistake made by them can cause great impact to us, they never know how much effort and commitment we have been put in and they never know our feeling. We are not sure what caused them late, but if this was caused by human error and they never bother to say ‘Sorry’ for the delay… well, I think they might have little problem who never know what ‘promise’, ‘self-discipline’, ‘responsibility’, ‘risk management’ is…

Gave up
We were so worried while waiting, the time was wasted hour by hour. We exactly not afford to delay anymore when time passed 12pm. We have lost 5 hours of the day time. 2pm, our hope remained little, we realized it was no longer possible for us to make Trans-Titiwangsa in 4 days. We have lost 1 day.

We were discussing what the Plan B is. None of us wanted to continue anymore, we have ONE AND ONLY ONE destination, it is TRANS-TITIWANGSA, not Korbu, not Gayong nor Yong Belar. It is either ALL or NONE.

And so, we gave up with pain, disappointment and frustration.

Lesson
I was truly deeply sad; the scar will not go off easily. Another painful and costly lesson, NEVER DEPEND ON ANY OTHER THAT YOU NOT FAMILIAR!

After the frustration…

横越蒂蒂旺莎山脉是我许久以来的心愿,这次因为别人的小小过错而导致我们的行程被延误,是我觉得最悲伤及愤怒的。队友说我们不能怪罪他们,毕竟我们还只不过是‘投靠’别人罢了,别人也没正式与我们接洽过,况且别人也和我们一样,等那司机等了数小时啊,就看开点吧。

可是我就理直气壮反口问他:为何他们要等那没到的司机?
他说:因为他们迟到。
我再反问:‘口头上答应’,算是‘答应’吗?
他说:是的。
我说:那既然答应了却因为自身失误,算是失信吧?如果那领队稍微有些责任感,尽管他们也遭殃,也总该和我们交代吧?

她却不以为然,难道就觉得这是理所当然,因为我们在‘投靠’他们?这再一次刺痛我的伤口,狠狠的警告自己:求人不如求己。

无可否认,我的确很愤怒,因为我很在意这件事,至今,我们都不知道他们到底为何迟到,如果是人为疏忽缺乏自律而导致严重损失,在职常上她早已被开除了。

浪费时间、浪费金钱是其次,团对的士气在等待中衰退,到最后不得不接受这残酷的事实,这简直是一种心灵的煎熬。OX的历史中,第七届攀登活动,从此被填了个‘空’。

如果真要追究责任,我会誓要查出真相,非找出那个千古罪人不可。可是那又如何?要那人展台示众吗?与其弄得如此难堪,不如祝福他们,希望他们从爬山的失误中吸取教训,别重蹈覆辙,从自己开始,学习自律、坚毅、培养危机意识,再从攀登过程中学习谦卑、互相合作、互相照顾、互相尊重等。

攀登,岂是说爬山而已?那是一门很深的学问呢!
为了安抚心中的悲愤,我只能安慰自己说,守得云开见月明。好的东西,总得来不易。

请为第七届攀登活动失败默哀10秒钟。

2 則留言:

krunner 提到...

Aww - that was a terrible and dissapointing thing to happen your group. A(painful) lessons learnt I think.

Boon Haw 提到...

I was eager to read this report too about the trans titiwangsa. But sad to hear that you guys did not make it. Nevertheless, you and your friend's heart is strong and there is no doubt, the trans titiwangsa report will be out one day. Strive on and forget the pain.