星期五, 10月 27, 2006

悲愤以后就是平静

当我们设下目标要横越蒂蒂旺莎三大高山时,心里充满希望与期待,期待那山、那水、那风,和那重重的大背包。

到了10月21日,我们一行人不敢马虎,准时出发,到达集合点还尚早,在路旁等待4WD从天黑等到天亮,喂蚊不少。去到河边,深怕不够睡导致精神不足而上不了山,大伙儿赶紧争取时间,分秒必争拼命休息。

结果十点过去了,他们还没到。
十二点到了,填填肚子,他们还没到。
两点也过了,觉得不对劲,商议过后决得不可能上山了。我们已经被延误一天,四天里怎么也爬不过这三个山头。

悲伤欲绝
当时我悲伤欲绝,愤怒得握紧拳头一声也不出。我们有备而来却换得如此下场。 我觉得我们向在迎战,却一鼓作气,再而衰,三而竭,未开战就已经全军覆没。

愤怒
五天的长假,我从来不曾如此浪费过。这的确令所有人感到愤怒不满,在槟岛游玩那几天,只要友人一提及这件事,我就像雷霆般泄愤。

叮嘱自己不要忘记这悲愤,要好好把它记录下来供人参考这样可笑也可耻的遭遇。把悲愤藏在心里头的滋味其实不好受。

解放
回到隆后赶紧抽时间做记录,写完以后忽然觉得一切都松懈下来。之前的波涛汹涌已经转换成静河,睁开眼睛把目光放远,在平和的心境下得到解放。

这是一个过程,从悲伤欲绝,到愤怒不堪,在转变成平静。先在,笑容重现我嘴角,就让我带你去看看我们九小时等待的地方。

过去的就让它过去,悲痛如果不能被原谅就得变得善忘。我又想起了伍佰的《钢铁男子》,可是这次,我没有战胜我自己。



就是这条涓涓流水的小河,缓和和我们烦躁的心。

一行人就像煎鱼般,在断桥上睡了又醒,醒了又睡

最后,无论如何也得拍张全体照,还被人强逼一定要笑。。。

《钢铁男子》
词/曲:伍佰
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擦去转身离去之後不争气的泪
灿烂笑容渗杂著汗水
真的累你看不出我的伤悲
景色还是一样的美

忘记昨日一切其实还没有准备
新的明天如何去面对
我需要安慰让悲伤的人不流泪
迎向太阳头也不回

告诉我

像个钢铁般的男子
我会藏起我所有的心事
像座坚强的山能抵挡风和雨
浓雾若散去抬起头遥望著天际
明天又是一片翠绿

像个钢铁般的男子
我会藏起我所有的心事
将我热情的心随季节而冷却
没有尽头前方的路途还遥远
就算感动也无所谓

一切都将成回忆无法抹灭的过去
会随著时间慢慢地模糊的痕迹
就让它去
或许有一天会想起
生命之中曾经战胜自己

7th Annual Mountaineering Trip: Forever Pain

It was the OX’s 7th Annual Mountaineering Trip, destination was Korbu-Goyong-Yong Belar, the Trans-Titiwangsa via Tanjung Rambutan. A team formed by 5 of us was having very high spirit and excited about the expedition which have been looking forward long time ago. However, we DID NOT make it. It was a total failure! We had been waiting for another group for more than 9 hours but the group did not turn up, we left the place and return at 3.25pm.

We left with the greatest pain in our heart, followed by the shame, the disappointment and the resentment which will never be forgettable and forgivable. The tragedy already written into OX’s history, the 7th Mountaineering Trip, was NIL.

How it happened?
The route from Ulu Kinta to Gunung Korbu has been changes for some times, none of us has confident to go by the new route, the Senai Trail without a guide. However, it is not worthwhile to pay a large amount of money and share by 5 of us for the guide just to lead us for the Senai Trail where we do not really need him after reaching Korbu.

When we knew that one of our friends is joining a group with size of 16 to Korbu by hiring a guide, we were thinking to share the guide with them, and lastly the agreement has been set orally via our friend, and this meant a ‘Promise’, too.

The mistakes begun here…
The reasons of making it a failure were so insulting.

I have no doubt to say 5 of us are experienced climbers, among us, there were 2 who have been in mountaineering for more than 10 years. Kam Meng started to plan the trip months ago, when the team was formed, the mission to Trans-Titiwangsa was as firm as the mountain, our commitment was as strong as the gravity.

Mistake #1:
There was no any formal conversation or agreement made between the leaders from 2 teams. We were just passing and getting the message via our friend, we don’t even know what the background of our friend’s group is. We don’t know how good are they, how serious are they, how matured are they? Eventually, they played a fool to us…

Mistake #2:
As all of the Malaysians knew, the Deepa-Raya eve would have terrible jam at the NS Highway. Though the 2.5-hour drive to Ipoh could be delayed to 4-5 hours, we departed for north at 1.30am and we also knew that the group supposed to depart the same time with us. But I wonder why they delayed until 2.30am still in Damansara, KL?

Okay, they were late, the traffic was bad. We were agreed to meet each other at Tanjung Rambutan, 5.30am. Next, they missed the time agreed with the 4WD driver, and the driver left them behind (but the driver said his 4WD was broke down?) after picking us to the starting point (we got to know that we both hiring the same 4WD driver).

They were 1-2 hours late, but the consequence was, it made them 8-9 hours late.

Mistake #3:
2 teams, 2 visions. They never understand our position, they never know how serious we are for the trip, they never how meaningful is the 7th anniversary, they never know a little mistake made by them can cause great impact to us, they never know how much effort and commitment we have been put in and they never know our feeling. We are not sure what caused them late, but if this was caused by human error and they never bother to say ‘Sorry’ for the delay… well, I think they might have little problem who never know what ‘promise’, ‘self-discipline’, ‘responsibility’, ‘risk management’ is…

Gave up
We were so worried while waiting, the time was wasted hour by hour. We exactly not afford to delay anymore when time passed 12pm. We have lost 5 hours of the day time. 2pm, our hope remained little, we realized it was no longer possible for us to make Trans-Titiwangsa in 4 days. We have lost 1 day.

We were discussing what the Plan B is. None of us wanted to continue anymore, we have ONE AND ONLY ONE destination, it is TRANS-TITIWANGSA, not Korbu, not Gayong nor Yong Belar. It is either ALL or NONE.

And so, we gave up with pain, disappointment and frustration.

Lesson
I was truly deeply sad; the scar will not go off easily. Another painful and costly lesson, NEVER DEPEND ON ANY OTHER THAT YOU NOT FAMILIAR!

After the frustration…

横越蒂蒂旺莎山脉是我许久以来的心愿,这次因为别人的小小过错而导致我们的行程被延误,是我觉得最悲伤及愤怒的。队友说我们不能怪罪他们,毕竟我们还只不过是‘投靠’别人罢了,别人也没正式与我们接洽过,况且别人也和我们一样,等那司机等了数小时啊,就看开点吧。

可是我就理直气壮反口问他:为何他们要等那没到的司机?
他说:因为他们迟到。
我再反问:‘口头上答应’,算是‘答应’吗?
他说:是的。
我说:那既然答应了却因为自身失误,算是失信吧?如果那领队稍微有些责任感,尽管他们也遭殃,也总该和我们交代吧?

她却不以为然,难道就觉得这是理所当然,因为我们在‘投靠’他们?这再一次刺痛我的伤口,狠狠的警告自己:求人不如求己。

无可否认,我的确很愤怒,因为我很在意这件事,至今,我们都不知道他们到底为何迟到,如果是人为疏忽缺乏自律而导致严重损失,在职常上她早已被开除了。

浪费时间、浪费金钱是其次,团对的士气在等待中衰退,到最后不得不接受这残酷的事实,这简直是一种心灵的煎熬。OX的历史中,第七届攀登活动,从此被填了个‘空’。

如果真要追究责任,我会誓要查出真相,非找出那个千古罪人不可。可是那又如何?要那人展台示众吗?与其弄得如此难堪,不如祝福他们,希望他们从爬山的失误中吸取教训,别重蹈覆辙,从自己开始,学习自律、坚毅、培养危机意识,再从攀登过程中学习谦卑、互相合作、互相照顾、互相尊重等。

攀登,岂是说爬山而已?那是一门很深的学问呢!
为了安抚心中的悲愤,我只能安慰自己说,守得云开见月明。好的东西,总得来不易。

请为第七届攀登活动失败默哀10秒钟。

星期五, 10月 20, 2006

Trans-Titiwangsa

7th Annual Mountaineering Trip: Trans-Titiwangsa (Korbu-Gayong-Yong Belar)
Date: 20 Oct 2006 – 25 Oct 2006 (5D4N)

The Team:
Captain Kam Meng
Members Miow Chin, Leong, Geok Wah and I



Description:
Starting point at Tanjung Rambutan, reach Gunung Korbu (2183m) at day#2, continue and reach Gunung Gayong (2173m) at the same day, then proceed and arrived Gunung Yong Belar (2180m) at day#4. Ending point at Kampung Raja, Cameron Highland.


All right, Happy Holiday and Happy Deepa-Raya!

星期一, 10月 16, 2006

Long Time No See 20k

Finally started up my engine for the first long, slow, distance (LSD) run after 2 months plus on last Sunday (15 Oct) via Hartamas route.

Paced with me was the kambing (finally only agreed to go for 20k). Luckily someone was there to pacing with me, if not I definately already gave up at 17km.

For me, LSD is about pushing the wall further in order not to hit on it in the real full marathon.

Happy pushing the wall!

Split time:
1:09'07 (10k to Petronas) - Ran with slow and relax pace, did not feel tired at all
6'68 (Rest and toilet break at Petronas)
1:07'08 (10k Back to Bkt. Aman) - Felt the tiredness after crossing Jalan Duta
Total Time: 2:23'15
Total Running Time: 2:16'15

星期四, 10月 12, 2006

Chin Woo Biathlon 2006


Haze condition

The haze condition was eased by the rain for the past two days, so I quickly went to wallap some mileage on the road :D

This Sunday, I’m going to do my ‘Long Time No See 20k’.
Hahaha, cos I have been quite a long time did not do LSD liao lo… Hopefully this Sunday has a good day, a good day for prayers, for alibabas, and for all mankinds.

Singapore Marathon has 7+ weeks to go from now. Due to my late training and slow pick up, now don’t dare to delay any training anymore. Keep training to call back my stamina and endurance, 42km, the limit of mine, not hope to suffer too much and hit the wall in the race.

Enjoy and complete the run with injury free is the most important objective in my marathon event.

For those first timers, hope you have high spirit in completing your first ever full marathon with appropriate training schedule. Just share with you, running, cross training, meals and rest, all are the factors in the marathon training.

See below, my training schedule. Hope can meet the targetted mileage :)



Let’s visualise the victory smile crossing the finishing line.

星期五, 10月 06, 2006

逐渐被淡忘的中秋

曾经我们年少的那个年代,提的是七彩缤纷的纸灯笼。和兄弟姐妹及花园里大班大班小朋友绕完圈圈后就回到家里点蜡烛。家里的篱笆门啊窗啊,就这样的被点上成百的小蜡烛,整间屋子就成了闪闪发光的‘黄金屋’。当然,我们总爱和邻居比较谁家蜡烛比较美。

然而那时我们总故意忽略点燃蜡烛以后的善后工作而被妈妈骂。

中学年代的时候就和大班的同学到关丹著名的直落尖不达(Teluk Cempedak)海边,在沙滩上画图案点蜡烛。从远处登去整个沙滩堆满人潮、点燃的蜡烛和纸灯笼,实在热闹极了。

然而那时我们却没想到,这是对大海的污染。

长大后中秋节就成了送礼的佳节。购买月饼送人似乎成了大多数人的责任。回家团圆也成了游子门最渴望的事。你任何时候孤单都无所谓,可是就不能是这一天,月圆花好的中秋节与孤单寂寞的人相比,简直是雪上加霜。

现在,孩子们提着‘电灯笼’,没有火烧纸灯笼,没有‘大游行’,没有‘黄金屋’。。。
可悲,可悲。

还记得意义深远的《传灯》这首歌吗?

每一条河是一则神话  从遥远的高山流向大海
每一盏灯是一脉香火  把漫长的黑夜渐渐点亮
为了大地和草原    太阳和月亮
为了生命和血缘    生命和血缘
每一条河是一则神话  每一盏灯是一脉香火
每一条河都要流下去  每一盏灯都要燃烧自己


大概大家只记得‘月亮圆,月亮圆,月亮照在我的家。。。’那么大众化且肤浅的流行歌罢了。

十五的月亮,打一成语。
什么?
灯迷呀!别告诉我你已经望了还有猜灯迷这回事哦!

‘中秋节’本来自周代以来,是迎寒祭月的节日,到了唐代发展成为祭月、赏月、玩月的喜庆团圆的盛大节日,沿袭至今。

传承中华文化,是每个中华子弟该有的责任啊!

祝大家有个快乐中秋。

参考网站: 八月桂影连灯影,人间秋夕祭月夕

星期四, 10月 05, 2006

No Jog, No Joke

Air Pollutant Index (API) past few days in PJ, KL. More info goto http://www.doe.gov.my/

3/10/2006 (Tue)

Petaling Jaya - 11am: 29, 5pm: 38
Kuala Lumpur - 11am: 25, 5pm: 51

4/10/2006 (Wed)
Petaling Jaya - 11am: 72, 5pm: 82
Kuala Lumpur - 11am: 77, 5pm: 87


5/10/2006 (Thu)
Petaling Jaya - 11am: 85, 5pm: 87
Kuala Lumpur - 11am: 91, 5pm: 94


6/10/2006 (Fri)
Petaling Jaya - 11am: 99, 5pm: 98
Kuala Lumpur - 11am: 101, 5pm: 100
Shah Alam - 11am: 127, 5pm: 128

API Indication:
0-50: Good
51-100: Moderate
101-200: Unhealthy
201-300: Very Unhealthy
>301: Hazardous


Remarks:
Take good care of your body, don't play play, running for good and healthy body, not die hard for racing :)
(Or you may run with your mask too :P)


星期一, 10月 02, 2006

Another Turtle Conservation Centre - Ma' Daerah Turtle Sanctuary


Surfing the Internet and supprisingly found this turtle conservation efforts, Ma' Daerah Turtle Sanctuary. For more information, hit this link http://madaerah-turtle-sanctuary.org/.

Ma' Daerah Turtle Sanctuary is conducted by WWF-Malaysia, it also has the similar programme as SEATRU, but they called it Weekend Programme Camps 2006. If you are not possible to apply for 1 week leave for SEATRU Volunteer Programme (RM450), perhaps this is the BEST choice where the Weekend Programme Camp only starts on Friday and ends on Monday(RM250).

After 1 month coming back from the SEATRU volunteer programme, I still remember freshly of witnessing the emergence of the hatclings, holding carefully the egg with the baby inside for relocation, and etc...

Again, it is a chapter regarding the life and death; Another chapter regarding a mother and a baby; Also, another chapter of human being and environment.

Worth to go and experience it no matter how much can you help the turtles, and no matter how much efforts can you contribute to the turtles.

Cheers!
Life is not esy, appreciate every life... :)

Pine Tree Hill & Rotter Hill

Date: 01.10.2006 (Sunday)
Where: Pine Tree Hill & Rotter Hill (Fraser's Hil)
The Pine Tree Trail:
http://www.wwfmalaysia.org/fhnec/trails.htm#pinetree
Overview: The trail is realy physically challenging, 5 of us took 2.30 hours to reach to the Pine Tree Hill, where normally people take 3-4 hours. That's why most of us almost flat during the way back... We took 30 minutes proceeded to Rotter Hill which having absolute great and nice view at the summit.

The view from Pine Tree Hill: 3 stars out of five
The view from Rotter Hill: 5 stars out of five

This picture was taken from a small open view after 3 minutes walk from the starting point

View of the Pine Tree Hill

Gunung Semangko viewed from the Rotter Hill

View from one of the angles from Rotter Hill, it is an almost 360 degree view at the summit (the view is blocked by the entrance to the summit)