星期五, 8月 19, 2005
There was once when I was in South Thailand
I had a strong willing to go to the beach where there is a mermaid
I took about an hour bus
Lastly came to a small town
But I started to be panic
Because I couldn’t see any beach or sea….
The beach is suppose just beside the road if this town is nearby the sea
I asked around,
people given directions to me and I followed.
After a while of walking,
I found neither breeze from the sea nor the salty taste of the sea..
I was so tired and disappointed
At the moment when I was about to give up
I saw there was a different color of blue from the sky
It was deep blue
There was wave on top of the water
And it is sea!
I was so excited and just keep going despite of how tired I am
Because I strong realized I was at the correct path
As long as I keep going
I will be at the beach very soon.
Besides kept going, there was only kept going
Until my foot stepped on the sand and felt the sea
Only I was willing to take a rest.
The feeling was simply the great and obtained a strong satisfaction
It wasn’t a matter on how beautiful was the beach
It wasn’t a matter how clear was the water
It also wasn’t a matter is there a mermaid?
The most important was I’m here at the destination led by my strong will
So, if you ask me,
Even though I have been suffering by the Love
Can I love again?
Will I desire to love again?
Yes I will,
And I’ll be more treasure the love, more understand how to love and will be a better lover than previous
Because I can strongly feel it
It is right at in front
Perhaps it is too far from me
But I realized it is at in front
I’ll just keep going
I’m sure I’ll be there one day.
So my answer is
To Love the Man for One Whole Life.
星期二, 8月 16, 2005
My mood is simply Ten Thousand times bluer than the deep blue sky
and the emotion is simply Ten Thousand times deeper than the deep blue ocean
The hurt and the pain that you have left to me is simply Ten Thousand times more than the love you gave to me.
I just want to tell you, Mr. ‘Gentleman’
I Love You...
I Hate You is simply Ten Thousand times more than I Love You.
星期四, 8月 11, 2005
I was so surprise…
All the while I was hoping and looking forward you to be a gentleman
who can take good care to all other ladies beside me
and be polite and smile to everybody surrounding you.
How many times have I complained this to you?
you are so different.
I see a new brand you who have really improved a lot
I guess you have really let go everything,
or perhaps you think it’s not worthwhile to made yourself unhappy because of a woman you hate the most?
You will never know how suffer and how sad I am
because I'm neither in your eyes nor your heart.
Until today, or perhaps until the day I die,
I still have no idea why is this a choice for you to chase me away from your house
and what caused you to act so badly to me?
and this is called 'gentleman'?
We have to learn and grow
Let go and move forward
I’m not so sure am I ahead of you
I still have a very long journey for my transition stage.
Oh my dear,
my miserable life has just begun right after I stepped out from your house…
星期二, 8月 09, 2005
星期一, 8月 08, 2005