星期三, 12月 28, 2005

Attack in TTDI Park

When I was doing my 10th loop at TTDI Park beside the lake, it was already about 8.20pm. The park was so dark even there were few road lights along the track. When I almost reaching to my finishing point, suddenly ‘something’ in black was approaching me and it really caught me by surprise!

I was ‘attacked’ by a bird. It hit me and kissed at my left cheek, then flew away…
Hahahaha… so pai seh :P

I have no idea why the bird has to do that? It did not seem like attacking me, cause I don’t feel pain and I did not get hurt. It has been trying to get my attention during the previous few loops by getting itself into the lake.

I think there are only 2 possibilities, either the bird is ‘fat-kai-mang’ (bird blind) or I’m too beautiful :P (no vomit please!)

3 Lazy Scorpions in Fraser’s Hill

Another 2 scorpions and I actually stole a little moment for relaxation in Fraser’s Hill while people were training hard during the Christmas holiday.

I miss the cool water, fresh air, blue sky, green view, and the breeze of freedom since I have not been traveling/backpacking for couple of months, and I strongly feel that my body and my mind need a break! My last climbing trip was a month ago to Mount Datuk, but I really miss the feeling of into the wild.

Rho Wen aka the Scorpion #1; Chee Chung aka the Scorpion #2 and me aka the Scorpion #3 heading towards Fraser’s Hill on Christmas day at about 10am. Luckily we managed to catch the up going time gap in odd hours at 1pm, else we will have to wait until 3pm.

Guess who we met in Fraser? Joey the babyKangaroo. We suppose to meet last week or next week for canoeing course, but due to certain issue, we have to postpone the course until further notice, and the instructor, who is her brother also will be returning to Singapore.

3 of us went out for a jog at about 5.30 pm, we planed to run to the Jelai Waterfall which located at 5km from our resort. We were impressed by the Christmas decoration at The Smokehouse on the way to our destination. It is an English-style resort with real Christmas trees at in front of the house, and there were chimney inside the house too. Our buttocks like sticking on their soft sofa and not willing to leave this sweet place. In fact it is a very warm place to hang around with your loved one.

How nice if it was snowing instead of raining now!

After running (easy jog only la.. hahah) all the way down hill for about 2km, the rain was getting heavier, and we decided to turn back because it was too late. Then we ran all the way up hill under the rain, phew… exhausted. We were wet, and trembling sheltered under a hut.

We made a joke to ourselves and insulted each other, saying that others who are same age with us might be spending quality time with their family and kids, whereas three of us still playing around under the rain like kids…

hahah… but this is not funny at all, we just accept the fate and get use to it.

At night, we curi-curi masak steamboat in the room :P It was so warm…

We have agreed to wake up at 7am tomorrow, then go to the Pine Hill Trail for a walk, but the next day, everybody woke up at 9am :P

The Pine Hill Trail suppose connected by the Mager Trail which is only few minutes far from our resort, unfortunately we saw the road sign, but the trail was missing. So we just drive to the entrance of the Pine Hill Trail, then have an about 1hr walk since nothing special along the trail. It supposes to take 3-4 hours for a return hike to the summit.

Into the car, we followed the way we ran yesterday in order to reach the Jelai Waterfall. What a mini and Teh Tarik Waterfall, but we still have had some fun soaking our legs in the cold water and felt the force of the waterfall.

There is a golf course at the hill further up from the waterfall, we stealth into their field and laid down on the green green grass, toke a deep breath, release all the stress.

This is how we revitalized and recharged ourselves in Fraser’s Hill, then pia, pia, pia again after returning.



The force of the waterfall, if not like teh-tarik, i'll just dive myself into the cold water!


This is called freedom... :)


Warm steamboat.

星期五, 12月 23, 2005

I have not been running for 1 week

This sad to tell you that I have not been running for one week :(
The most recent run was last Sunday, did a about 15km LSD run with Phyllis. I was like a working zombie after that, working day and nite with coffee as my companion. Sometimes i took a nap for about 3-4 hours in the midnight, then wake up at 4 or 5am to continue working. Prepare for work at 7am, working until 6pm. At night, then continue working until midnight and repeat the routine.

This is not a life.

Everytime when i was driving on the way to office, I just can't stop thinking of running. I have strong desire to put on my running shoes, but felt helpless cause I realised there was an more imprtant task awaiting for me to complete.

From that point onwards, I made up my mind, this isn't the life that I wish. After this round, I'm going to adjust my life to a better lifestyle and STRICTLY say NO again to this kind of lifestyle . I have lost the efficiency of my work and lost my personal time due to exhaustion of my brain and body! The only excersice that I managed to do is a little bit of Yoga stretching at early in the morning.

Right now, it is the cut off time to farewell to that lifestyle, I'll be putting on my running shoes and back to the road again!

I made a wish to Santa, to get some personal time and relaxation in Christmas.

Wish all of you have a Merry Christmas :)

星期四, 12月 22, 2005

Flaming Lamborghini

Ladies night with free flow of tequila and vodka. I only took a cup of vodka lime + few sucks of Flaming Lamborghini...

ended up become like this...

Dear my beloved x-colleagues (especially Karen), wa-ka-lu-kong, I'll not do that again!!!!
(Confession: As a runner and sport woman, we can't do this!!!! Hope this will be the last attempt...)

hahaha...

What a nice moment to catch up with all x-colleagues where we have been together for strong team spirit before :)

星期日, 12月 18, 2005

The Best Martial Artist

I'm a martial artist, but I'm not the BEST, because I know the award winner going to...

King Kong!

He can fight in Judo, Aikido, Karate-do, Kick boxing and 'lan-chai-kao' like Jacky Chan and Ong Bak in the movie. phew... very geng! Somemore I thought he going to be like Rambo at the end of the movie liao :P

星期五, 12月 16, 2005

Woman in Running

As usual, I was doing my 10km run alone around the UM campus on Wed nite. Due to the uncertainty work schedule, it’s not easy to compromise my running schedule with others in weekday.

It was about 9pm, a lot of vehicles passing by me and I believe some of them were public from outside like me.

Well, I’m wondering what’s wrong with a lady running alone. Most of the time I was mentally harassed by the horns/whistles/funny words coming from guys in their cars/motorbikes when they see a lady is running. They were showing their childish attitude and poor moral in their personality. Did our education system teach them to have fun by doing so?

I felt very sad and disappointed to this scenario… *sob*sob*

First of all, we (female) are not being respected.
Secondly, they never respect or appreciate the sports.

We can’t expect everyone in the country to have pleasant personality, yet I still feel it is unfair to women. Why most of the times women are the victims?

This leads me to another question, women, why are we always being the victims? Being a victim is not supposed to be our destiny, we have to be strong and brave, do not be afraid of standing up to defend ourselves if the people trying to challenge our limit.

I feel glad that every time I can have a safe run in UM campus at nite especially after passing the hilly road at the back of the campus.

Some of you might want to comment that I should run in appropriate time and venue. Yes, I agree, but I also want to comment that, to those people, please behave yourselves!

星期三, 12月 14, 2005

Reward for S'pore Full Marathon from my Sifu

A scoop of Baskin Robbins, just nothing.
But it is a finishing compliment for my S'pore Full Marathon from my sifu,
so,
the scoop of Baskin Robbins is meaningful.

(In work, he is my sifu, The Magic Loon, my boss in the previous company. Thank you so much!)

星期日, 12月 11, 2005

You Will Not Manage to Make It!

The KLIM 1st circuit run this morning, poor response instead.

There were only 3 candidates in Women Open Full Marathon category, me, Phyllis and a professional runner. Registration fee will be sponsored by AmBank for the first 3 places in each category. Basically there was no competition at all among three of us and we all knew the result even without racing.

Yes, I got the LAST! (hahahah…) and 3 of us will be sponsored by AmBank in KLIM Marathon 2006 :P

I only managed to finish 4 laps in 53 minutes. When I came to the marking point in 53 minutes, the officer told me that I have only 7 minutes left, and then next he said,

‘You can stop now, because you will not manage to make it for another lap in 7 minutes…’

I was like
.
Well, I was a bit upset because of the word ‘you will not manage to make it!’ Although I know I won’t be able to finish 5 laps in 1 hour, but you just can’t stop me from running or completing my 5th lap! :(

Fine then, you motivated in different way. I felt stressed in running this morning caused all are elite runners. This inspired me to train harder if I want a better performance in KLIM 2006 3 months later.

This is the first time I met with few of the web bloggers in the pacemakers network for example PM1, Runwitme and Dinesh, and the most fantastic, Martin who can recognized me ran in Shah Alam Lake!


NEXT Circuit run - 07th January 2006, Saturday (Full-2hr, Half-1hr 30min)

星期五, 12月 09, 2005

Evil spirit

I feel so guilty because I have not been putting my running shoes on my feet for past few days.

I set my alarms (handphone alarm and alarm clock) at 06:00 am since Wed, they alerted and woke me up every morning, but due to tiredness, I have missed the golden time for running by continue sleeping after off my alarms.

Regret is the only feeling after waking up and I kept shouting to myself, “Where is my self discipline?”

I was in Singapore past Wed, planned to wake up at 6 to have a final run in Singapore along the river side. My body just refused to do that, I ended up woke up at 7 and swam in the transparent pool for only 30 minutes. I can’t have running on the bus on my way back to KL in the evening.

Thursday morning 6 am, I was on my bed in Shah Alam apartment, my both alarms rang again, it was so natural to wake up to off my alarms, I was pretty tired then continue laying on the bed. By the time I woke up, it was already 8 am, time to work, it fact I was late!

Thursdays evening is not my running time, I have to attend Yoga class every Thursday night. After the Yoga session, whole body’s muscles were fully stretched. All were into relaxing situation and prepared to build up a stronger muscle in next day. Mind was sleepy; body was tired after the yoga session. I gained an excellent sleeping quality at night then.

I suddenly feel like putting on my running shoes last night at 11 am after reaching my apartment, but I did not do that.

This morning, I missed the time AGAIN!

I will say this is “Evil Spirit” instead of “Listen to Your Body”. Training is even harder than racing. If one lacks of self discipline in the training, basically the person is OUT.

I got to analyze my body again, either to restructure my biological clock or to change my training schedule.

Good luck to all of you, may the force be with you.

星期二, 12月 06, 2005

Marathon Photos




Singapore Marathon 05

Singapore Marathon 2005

It’s was tough and suffering to finish the 42.195km.
Yet, it was so satisfying when I crossed the finishing line.
At the beginning, I wonder why I was here in Singapore Marathon
At the end, I proud of myself that I finished the Marathon.

Anyway there were few disappointments which can’t be avoided and predicted…
This was my 1st Marathon, but I was not running under my name;
I was having bad diarrhea all the way in the 42.195km, went into the toilet for 6 times;
I was suffering by blister since 10km.

I’m still fine with the replacement, in fact it was an opportunity for me instead of disappointment. I just started running in September, it was impossible for me to take part in 42.195km Marathon in such a short time of training. After a few LSD training with Pacesetters and encouragement from Wan Lin, Chong Wah, Boon Keat, Rho Wen, Phyllis and Mr. Tey, I decided to take the challenge and opportunity to take over the bib from Seok Jiun.

The day before the race and the time I reached to 20+km, I was wondering why am I here for the marathon?

I started looking for toilet from 11km onwards. The journey from 20km to 30km was really tough and suffering, my mind started to be weak, stomachache made me can’t think much, just kept running and kept looking for toilet. After taking the first power gel at 24km, I gained much more energies to push me forward.

I took another power gel at about 32km, did some stretching to release tension on my legs muscle so that I can push more for the rest of 10km. I had been left at very behind, sigh…

It was not fun at all to count down from 30km, 12km still a long way to go. I was so tired at 35km, yet, there were 7km more to go… When I reached to 36km, the cheers from a cheer team were so motivating, spirit increased again.

Suddenly I felt like crying…
It caused by neither suffering nor tough, but because I knew I’m going to make it.
It was only 6km apart from the finishing line.

I had been running for 5 hours and more, and the time elapsed minute by minute. The will of crossing the finishing line was getting stronger and stronger. I kept pushing myself at the last 4km.

I just can’t wait to cross the finishing line to get my first Marathon medal and the finisher t-shirt. Surprisingly I still had energy and strength to speed at the last 50m, overtook at least 5 men before the finishing line and I heard a very loud cheers :)

When I stepped on the red carpet, the time showed 05:41…
I ignored the time, crying was my first feeling after crossing the finishing line, because…
I DID IT!

What’s wrong with the lousy timing? The most important is I made changes to my life, may be, I also inspire someone?


This was the ONLY picture that we managed to take before the race.
Top left: Wan Lin, Chui Miew (me), Rho Wen
Bottom left: Chong Wah, Boon Keat


Here’s my split time every 10km and 12km at the last (thanks to Mr. Tey for borrowing the split time watch to me)

1:09:19, 1:14:47, 1:32:43, 1:26:01
Total time: 5:41:02

Official result:
Chip time/Gun Time: 5h:40m:40s / 5h:41m:54s
Placing:
2739th / 4808 in entire Full Marathon category
304th / 589 in Women Open Full Marathon
24th / 52 in MAS Women Open Full Marathon
Average km 8m 4s

星期五, 12月 02, 2005

1st Full Marathon in my life


I have yet finish my work but my mind has been flying away to S'pore Marathon and start counting down the time to Race Day!

Yeah, feel so worried and excited, the 1st Full Marathon in my life.


...42.195km :: 4 Dec 2005 :: Singapore...
...Don't think, just run....


You must cross the finishing line with a smile!

星期三, 11月 30, 2005

Wake Up My Muscle

I have been working day and nite since last week, did not manage to do training after last Saturday's LSD (15km) and Sunday's race (5.5km). The worst case is my body is exhausted due to not having enough sleep. Sure will sleep like a pig in the bus on the way to Singapore.

I plan to go for short and speed training hopefully tomorrow morning, and lastly, a slow jog for about 3km on friday, just to wake up my legs' muscle, shouting at them and telling them that the war is near...

Few things haven't prepare for the trip, S'pore dollar, power bar, power gel, running suit, carbo snacks....

42.195km, 3 days 08H 30m to Race Day.

星期日, 11月 27, 2005

阔别六年后的第一枚奖牌

这是我阔别体坛整整六年多的第一枚奖牌。六年,那六年,除了空手道,我几乎没有活跃在其他的运动比赛。中学时期,校内运动会就是我最期待的日子。当时其他女同学一听到运动会都会皱起眉头,想到每星期有一天要牺牲午觉到操场练习就会想尽办法‘逃课’。我却偏偏和她们相反,好享受整个运动会的过程。

有些友情,就是在比赛中建立的。尤记得当年为队友拔河赛打气,大喊One-Two-Push, One-Two-Push… 还有当队友参加1500米时,就在圈外陪着他们跑完最后的400米。

这一次IOI Community Run,5.5公里,就是那六年后第一次出赛。开始报名参加时并没抱着参赛的感觉,反而只是想借此机会鼓励身边一些朋友参与跑步。反正只是5.5km,大概可以吸引一些初跑着,就这样,成功为六人报名参加。
第一次参加路跑,感觉蛮好的,冲锋的时候总特别紧张,身边还有一位很贴近的竞争者,使尽全力,冲到终点去。费时00:30:05,排名第八,得了阔别六年后的第一枚奖牌。。。


While waiting for the lucky draw, my sifu took a photo for me and khin. What a wonderful time to catch up with my ex-colleagues, khin was my teammate and loon was(is) my sifu. Since he is not in the picture, let me describe how he looked like... my sifu is the eldest in the Men Open category, he has a pair of legs which specially designed for running but having an obstacle at his belly :P Though he always claims himself as leng chai, but i think 'leng lou' is more precise lo...

星期六, 11月 26, 2005

Busy Saturday

Sorry guys, not manage to join you all for running this morning.

I woke up late at 5.50am this morning, body was in good condition (at first i thought i will suffer from tireness due to gastric and over exhausted yesterday), so i decided to join you guys. My godness, they were about to start their running at 6am soon, i sms RW telling her that i will be late and go ahead to start first. RW replied me that it was raining in PJ but clear sky in Shah Alam, they decided to delay the running and change venue to UM. Well, since it is a little bit out of my plan and i got to rush back for my busy work schedule, i decided to go for my own running practice at Shah Alam Lake.

Sorry Tey i did not inform you cause i guess you might already reached to Bukit Aman, it was 6.30am.

I started my run at 7am, felt my is body a bit weak, took my time to run for 1h:35m in slow pace around the mosque and lake. Sweat like hell after running, did some yoga stretching to warm down. Felt fresh again.

Continue working after taking shower and breakfast, until now...

星期五, 11月 25, 2005

BUSY

Look at this, my schedule from 24/11/2005
(at least 3 cups of coffee per day)

8.30 am - 7.00 pm Working (1)
7.30 pm - 8.15 pm Working (2)
8.30 pm - 10.30 pm Yoga
10.30 pm - 12.00 am Personal Time
12.00 am - 1.00 am Working (2)
1.00 am - 2.00 am Sleep
2.00 am - 4.00 am Working (2)
4.00 am - 7.30 am Sleep
8.30 am - 7.00 pm Working (1)
7.30 pm - 10.30pm Working (2)
10.30 pm - 11.00 pm Dinner ---> gastric

Gonna miss the running practice tomorrow morning, basically health is temporary out...

This reminds me last time when i was in project, rushing for dateline, didn't sleep/eat properly for a month, ended up having serious gastric and anorexia(厌食症).

So the rest of my frens, take good care of yourselves, the healthy and shiny me will return one day.

星期四, 11月 24, 2005

野花

忍不住要介绍这首歌给大家,一首很动听的歌。常常在山上、夜里被这首歌感动。

歌名:野花 歌手:田震

山上的野花为谁开又为谁败
静静地等待是否能有人采摘
我就象那花一样在等他到来
拍拍我的肩我就会听你的安排

摇摇摆摆的花呀
她也需要你的抚慰
别让她在等待中老去枯萎
我想问问他知道吗我的心怀
不要让我在不安中试探徘徊
我要为你改变多少才能让你留下来
我在希望中焦急等待你就没有看出来

我想问问他知道不知道我心怀
不要让我在不安中试探徘徊
如果这欲望它真的存在你就别再等待
因为那团火在我心中烧得我实在难耐呀
让我渴望的坚强的你呀经常出现在夜里
我无法抗拒我无法将你挥去
让我渴望的坚强的你呀经常出现在夜里
我无法抗拒我无法将你挥去


星期三, 11月 23, 2005

Excellent Sports Spirit - shared by wanlin

On Monday, I went to GlenEagles for blood donation. After coming back to office, I felt very tired.

On Tuesday, woke up at 6.30 am in the morning and went to the basketball court and did my warm-up exercise. Then, just started my badminton footwork training. I think badminton is still my favorite hobby. A runner told me that I should focus only on running. But, I think I still love running, swimming and badminton all 3 together. I am not a greedy person, but, I can't stop myself from falling in love with all these exercise.

At 5.30 p.m. I left the office and rushed to Kg Pandan for sprint running exercise. This time, I learn the lesson. Arrived there early and quickly did my warm-up exercise. It was raining but at 6.30 pm, sharp, sprint training started. Unlike last Thursday, we went for more longer distance.

warm-up:
2000 m

training:
4 x 400 m
3 x 800 m
1 x 1200 m
1 x 1600 m <--

But, I missed the last 1600 m because I need to rush back for badminton in Stadium Juara. The coach didn't sound happy because I left earlier. He advised me not to go badminton because both running and badminton are hard exercise. He worried if I continue playing badminton after running, I might hit sport injuries. At 9.00 p.m. I reached Juara Stadium. The players already started the game. Without warm-up, just joined them for the game. Finished the game at 10.00 p.m. and went back home with a tired body.

Today later in the evening, I will go to Pantai Hill Park for swimming. Need to meet up Say Li also to get the Christmas concert tickets. Last Sunday, I swam at 3K swimming pool. I tried to do sprint swimming with a distance of 50m. But, I really can't take it. My heart beat was extremely fast, can't even breath at the ending line. So, just swam in a normal pace for 500m. Then, tried another few rounds of 50m swim. But, still can't take it. I think my muscle is still not strong enough for sprint swimming. Nowadays, spend time doing weight training, focusing more on back muscle. I think it will take 1 year for me before I can feel comfortable in sprint swimming. But, never mind, this motivate me to continue exercise :-)

--by Wan Lin

星期二, 11月 22, 2005

野性的呼唤











浓雾里
我看不清自己
深夜里
你不在乎你自己
强风呼啸
如野性的呼唤
把我引诱
来到你的身边
被你迷惑
不愿归去
迷失我自己
像雨中的燕子一样
籍著雨点思念你












我既然无法随你浪迹天涯
算了吧
就让我随风而去
也许我们会在海角相遇
我不属于谁的
也不属于我自己
大概属于空气的
在风中
就算不舍
也得
摒弃所有隐藏的心事
瓦解一切紧守的承诺
埋没那思念你的根源

直到来生来世









我问穹苍
远方是那儿?
遥远的地方就是远方吗?
你的心房
就是那遥不可及的远方
永远漂流在边际
找寻不到
开放给我的入口处
眼眸望向远方远方就在你的心房












不曾犹豫
为你许了个愿
最后的祝福
最后的温柔
如燕
最后一次在雨中飞翔
用那剪刀似的尾羽
剪断我与你之间的思念
从此以后
彼此的天空没有连线












就算多年以后
我依然坚强不屈
站在顶端
还能向强风迎战
别过头来
红尘已去
一笑置之
又是好汉一条

后记:

The Call of the Wild – Gunung Datuk 19-20/11/2005 - 拿督山游记


星期五, 11月 18, 2005

痛苦也是一种幸福?

印象中,生病是一件极度凄凉的事。我就宁愿是受伤还是什么的也不愿意生病。然而那次在泰南背包旅行受伤时,还是一样觉得凄凉无比。一般正常的人,每人每年平均会生病至少一次。去年我也试过了在年终时生了一场唯一的大病。那时痛苦得不得了,躺在床上,全身乏力,完全反胃,还要吞药。。。

今年快到年终了,而我还没有生病,真的拜托,请别让我在这时候病倒。

有个朋友对我说过,偶尔,痛苦也是一种幸福。

想一想,从不同的角度来看,这也倒有道理的。

比如说,平时很健壮的你忽然病倒,或者忽然受伤,身边很多朋友就会忽然特别有心有情意,还会忽然关心你的状况。你因此感到很窝心并感动起来,原来痛苦的背后隐藏着一丝丝的甜蜜。

再说,朋友的问候与关心怎样也比不上情人的细心照顾。也许你并非病得太严重,也并非痛苦不堪,只是你想趁着这个机会尝尝被照顾的滋味,甚至向情人撒娇。情人总会很疼惜你,并小心翼翼的呵护你,不让你再被进一步伤害。那时候,就是另一半付出最多的时候。

很多时候,每当我们身或心受到痛苦时,不管你发现了没有,身边都会出现一道彩虹。就是这道彩虹把你的守护天使引来,它全心全意不求回报的照顾你。这位守护天使可以是一位陌生人,你的旧情人,你的情夫/妇,或是你梦寐以求的白雪公主/白马王子。。。

也许你本来就很坚强,但再坚强的人也有累了的时候,偶尔也会脆弱得想被疼被照顾。
也许你平日忙于工作,休息时间完全被剥夺,往往病倒或受伤的时候就是最佳的休闲时间。

如果那是心灵深处的痛苦,那么,当你勇于抗战后重新站起来时,那不止是一种幸福,而且是一种骄傲。

原来,痛苦是一种幸福,也是一门哲学。

星期日, 11月 13, 2005

别想,继续跑

凌晨一点
带着恐惧感入睡。
左脚脚板一点疼痛
心里确实极度担心
不敢想象
如果有一天我再也不能穿上跑步鞋

三小时的睡眠
大地还没苏醒
带着一点昨晚剩余的酒意
我得离开那温暖的被窝

来到聚集点
挣扎着
不晓得是否可以完成30km
既然大伙儿都锁定30km为目标
我也给自己一个机会
挑战我的第一次30km

每个人的一生
总有很多的第一次
而第一次永远有着最珍贵的回忆
就如我们第一次谈恋爱
尽管爱没延续
却是人生最重要的一堂课

开跑前先给自己一些激励
好象出战前
将军在冲锋阵线前
提着战旗
骑着骏马快奔
敲击着冲锋队的矛锋发出巨响
大喊精短有力的战前词
为战士潜意识设定目标
提高冲锋队的士气


我们每个跑者
都是跑道上的战士
时间是我们的敌人
终点是我们的目标
真正的战士
拥有不寻常的毅力
与坚强的意志力
并能善用智慧布局战略
知己知彼
懂得何时该如处女何时该如脱兔

而我
为自己的潜意识设定距离的目标
就是说不以时间局限完成30km的距离

漫漫长路中
我一直以慢速度前进
进入状况以后
步伐变成一种节奏
双腿就这样持续地跑动着
累了以后告诉自己
别想,继续跑
放慢速度减轻步伐
深呼吸以后又能再冲刺


途中有Tony仙人指路
Tey的鼓励
及若雯的追赶
士气没有减低
反而越来越高
尤其是遇见迎面而来的宗华和Phyllis
尽管彼此不说话
只用眼神交流
却足以给予相当大的力量

我用了很长的时间去完成这30km
但至少
我还是赢了这场挑战
完好的到达目标

星期四, 11月 10, 2005

西马第八峰 - 白岩峰

七点钟,你说晚上七点钟,好好好,我一定早点到。。。
02/11/2005星期三中午,在家里忙着工作,匆匆用了午+晚餐,开着车子在七点钟以前来到Seksyen 17与圆霖、宗华和CC会合。我们把背包扛上圆霖的Kia Sportage,七点十五分开始启程前往Captain Kam Meng和阿 Leong的家乡,Jeram。

路途上,我像个初恋情人,怀着那初恋的感觉期待与Chamah的邂逅。

圆霖说KM的家是‘开门见山’的那种,我们在十点之前就抵达那‘开门见山’的家。天空下着细细小雨,阿Leong早已在他家等候。才下车,就听见KM说什么Plan B的。天啊!原来除了我,所有人都已经知道去不成Chamah了,而我却像被卖猪仔般,以为这辆车就会把我载到Chamah去,谁知最后被告知不,就这样的被‘欺骗’了!

KM正式宣布因为4WD的问题而被迫取消前往Chamah,本来答应同行的9个人也因为这原因而演变成现有的6人行(KM,阿 Leong,圆霖,宗华,CC和我)。宗华和我的双眼都掩不住失望的眼神,KM给大伙儿两个选择,Gunung Pas(延续在Gunung Irau后的一座山)或是西马第八高峰的Gunung Batu Putih。后来我们选择了三天两夜的Gunung Batu Putih白岩山之旅。放弃Chamah是所有人最无奈的选择,包括KM本身在内,毕竟KM、宗华和圆霖是因去年无法攻顶而计划重游此山的。

用三天两夜时间攻上白岩山之顶并非难事,而且我们还有机会成为山顶洞人,尝一尝原始人的滋味。

惆怅了好一段时间,慢慢的接受这个事实,重新设下心理准备,到阿Leong的家借宿一晚,等待明天的到来。

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Day 1(03/11/2005)- 山顶洞人

清晨八时许,在巴刹用过早餐,买过了菜和简便的午餐便出发了。约一个小时后,圆霖和阿 Leong把我们载到一个叫Kuala Woh 的地方。白岩山的入口就在这里的原住民村庄,村庄旁就是Sungai Woh,河的两岸都住着原住民。那是一条宽大的河流,水源滔滔不绝,还有一个超小型的水坝。我们把各自的背包扛下车,换好运动鞋准备就绪,KM顺道和当地人打一打交道。出发前KM先调一调他新买的GPS卫星定位仪。10:15am,圆霖摇身一变,就变成一只老虎来领队,由KM压阵。我们踏出了前往白岩山的第一步。

如常,背帐篷的人是最伟大的,而那人就是KM和宗华:)(老虎已经功成而退了!)

我们走了越40分钟的路程,来到一个Y型的河位,两条河道就在这儿连接成为那滔滔不绝的Sungai Woh。我们跋涉第一条河,河水不深,却蛮急的,然后往那夹在两河间的山走去。这路上滑得很,多半是盖了树叶的泥浆路。一路上我走走跌跌的,大概20分钟左右,KM宣告错了路,必须掉头回到河岸去。走着泥浆路下山去,已经算不清到底滑倒了多少次,最怕的就是滑到路边的山谷去。

回到刚越过的那条河,我们本应继续越过另一条河才上山的。那一条水道水深腰间,而且流水很急。KM和阿Leong放下背包带头走在前端,接着有老虎、CC、我和宗华排成一条直线,把背包一个接一个传过对岸。我想我们都是幸运的,有缘目睹老虎过河呢!我是队伍里的唯一女子,也是体重最轻的一个,若急流要把我冲走可说易如反掌。于是他们五个男人手牵手成为一幅围墙让我扶着走。哈,那实在太感人了!

过了彼岸已是中午12点,大伙儿就在这河岸上歇息和吃午餐。
我们继续往上爬,又越过几条小溪,陆陆续续与山蛭和蚊虫交战。来到Last water point大概已是1点多,从这儿到山洞大约还有两个多小时的路程。

之前的道路像只是让我们暖暖身体罢了,真正辛苦的山路就在这儿开始。不再有平坦的山路,我们开始攀爬那斜斜如梯的山坡,路是由根形成的,必要时就手脚并用的往上爬。偶尔还要抱过树桐或往树桐下钻去。虽然艰苦,但却是一级棒的山路。踩着那些凹凸不平成为阶梯的树根,路上还能看见各种不同的寄生物如朵朵红色小伞的鲜菇、片片黑如灵芝或白如棉花的菌类、堆堆尖瘦的小白菇,还有大片大片的青苔依附在树的茎部和主杆。

大约两点多,天色转暗,雨欲来。
果然,下了一场滂沱大雨,如果下雨也用S、M、L来衡量的话,那这场雨就是XL了。我们六人已分成两队,老虎、宗华和我在前半队,和其他的在后相差了有一段距离。走在前线的我们不时会走走停停等待后半队的队友,我们三个就在深山里站在雨中,豪雨淋在身上的感觉很棒,却冷得叫人全身发抖。我和宗华最爱雨水,而冷得全身鸡皮疙瘩的也是我们俩,停下来时我忍不住靠近宗华的身体取一取暖。当时大伙儿又累又冷又饿,等全队重组后,我们把渗杂着雨水的饼干往嘴里塞,抬起头张开口就用舌头舔舔唇边的雨滴。这时KM双腿开始感到不适,但他还是从不放弃,忍痛继续在雾中上路。

KM一度告诉大队说找不到往山洞之路,当时已经是下午四点多,那个消息显然有点打击。但在不久后忽然玄机在前,KM确定的说这就是通往大石洞的路,那时大家的心都安了。

时间大概是五点半,看到大石洞时大家的心更是欣喜,我们还在那儿遇见了另一支爬山队伍,数十人,都是华人和男的。他们看似已经到达了好一段时间,已经整理好营地并开始烧饭。大家爬山的都会互相照应,他们还主动让一些位子给我们。我们聊了一阵后就去大石洞的另一边,刚好能容下我们六人。大石洞是一个完美的C型,不必塔帐篷还有蛮大的活动空间。我亲爱的队友先避开让我在那儿换上干衣服,然后再由我回避让出空间。老虎爱泡澡的吗?整队人除了老虎,都没有其他人去洗澡了:P 那水源就在大石洞往下走约5分钟,不算是河流,却名副其实的泉源。那如龙头,冰凉清水就从这小小洞口流出,围石恰好形成一个小小又浅浅的清凉水池可容纳几人泡澡。

我发现穿在身上的衣服有些湿了,心觉不妙,赶快检查背包,天啊!寒衣和睡袋都被雨水淋湿了。CC和我一样可怜,睡袋是湿漉漉的。而阿Leong和宗华到晚间临睡前才发现他们的睡袋一样变了水袋。好一个宝贵的教训,每间东西都必须要有多重保护哦!热心的宗华把寒衣暂时借我,直到临睡才还他。

整理过后越六点多,KM开始准备晚餐,他还企图要我利用美色向‘邻居’借两支水呢。我当然不负众望,没利用美色,只是他们好人好事而已。老虎到水源去取水,宗华和KM烧饭,CC切包菜和榨菜,我才开过午餐肉的罐头盖就被割伤了拇指,笨!阿Leong把午餐肉切片,然后开始煎午餐肉和鸡蛋。那晚我们有很丰富的晚餐,我终于吃到KM煮的菜肴了!准备了两个小时有五菜一汤,以及一些在路上检到的臭豆,阿Leong和KM还有孖腊肠呢!最后阿Leong放弃一条肠,还把它吊在石岩上。

夜里我们钻进各自的睡袋,开放式的排排睡在岩石下。夜里冷风阵阵,陪伴我们的有坚硬的岩石、虫鸣、雨声、鞭爆声,还有老虎打鼻鼾的巨响(哈哈)。雨从未停过,我们一整夜又睡又醒。

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Day 2 (04/11/2005) – 当牙刷遇上蜡烛

老虎一大早六点多就醒来,竟坐在小石头上阅报。我和老虎较早起身,就把所有mass tin 扛到水源去清洗。

这个清晨,由老虎来准备快熟面作我们的早餐。我们原定今晚在山顶露营,由于这石洞实在太吸引,而且又觉得如果明天直接从山顶一直下山到山脚会太累,大伙儿决定攻顶后回石洞过夜,来回大概7-8小时。因此,这次登山根本无需扎营。我们收拾了一些粮食、水、电筒和国旗,分别丢进两个背包,由最fit的宗华和老虎来背。

大约10.15am,我们换上昨天的战衣、湿袜和湿鞋,与邻居道别后就开始踏出山洞往热带雨林走去。攀登的路程是蛮艰难的,我们踩在由树根或树杆形成的道路,一些时候还必须攀爬斜度约70-90度的峭壁。沿途看见的多半是巨石、巨树、诡异树林和苔藓雨林。我们一行人再次被分为两队,老虎、宗华和我在前;KM、阿Leong和CC在后。不出一小时,我们抵达山腰,那儿是一片小小的平地,由于雾太浓,四处只是白茫茫。休息片刻后就继续上路,我、宗华和老虎先抵达山峰。那儿光秃秃的,有一座铁塔,象征式的代表这就是最高点。等KM到来后,我们也象征式的举起国旗拍照留念。


我们就这样把白岩峰征服吗?不,我们从不把山征服。我们只不过如天涯知己,闯进山的领域,视山如家,还有茂密森林里那层揭不开的神秘面纱,永远隐藏着玄关,一座巩固屹立千年的山岂能如此就被征服?攀登者如果没有怀着感恩和尊重的心态登山,山间的精灵也一样不会尊重攀登者。

在山顶呆了约15-20分钟,记录了CC说的一句话:从此再也不爬山了!可信度不高,我们就拭目以待吧!中午两点多,雨来了。在阿Leong还没来得及喘气的当儿,我们就下山了。下山时KM手持在山顶检到的一把铲。队伍又被分为两半,老虎、我和宗华后来从另一条小径出来才肯定的刚才走错了路。难怪有些路段我和宗华都发现毫无印象。经过营地,发现不负责任的局面,那些无良的攀登者竟把空罐留下!老虎说他在那儿看见了一堆超fresh的人的大便。

我们在五点之前就回到营地,邻居已经撤退,我在蜡烛旁发现他们的留言和用剩的蜡烛。字条上留下了联络网址。就这样的上演了一段‘当牙刷遇上蜡烛’小插曲。一切都由大意的我把牙刷弄丢在小溪旁并由邻居帮我检回归还而开始。就这样被队友取笑,像那些古代小说的情节,女主角刻意把手帕弄丢到小溪去,再由男主角替她检回送上那么浪漫。不过,我是真的无意的哦!

根据他们昨天所说的,KM领着宗华去找另一条出路,由阿Leong用对讲机与他们对应。我和老虎去取水,CC则整理睡觉的营地。然后,就是洗澡时间。清凉一番后,实在棒极了。

夕阳时分,又是炊烟袅袅上升的时候。KM、阿Leong、老虎和我开始忙着烧饭炒菜和煮汤。这顿饭可说是我两年以来最认真煮的一餐了。我们一面煮一面呱呱叫,这时正是Sand fly出没的时间。阿Leong也一面开罐头豆鼓鲮鱼一面呱呱叫,因为原本那罐头刀不知哪儿去了,用那似刀非刀的工具来开罐头还不呱呱叫吗?虽然是忙,而且还得蹲在地上煮得蛮辛苦的,但只要不是餐餐快熟面,我什么都愿意。

晚饭后阿Leong实在太累,倒头就睡了。大伙儿显得有些无所事事,队友们开始互相按摸以舒解疲劳。老虎抢着要与KM按摸,说什么为了报答以前KM替他按摸之恩!这一晚,我们拥有较宽大的位子,排排睡在岩石上。雨没下,sand fly就来了。我们有缘的陪一只蝉度过它短暂的生命。如常,我们睡睡醒醒的,看看身旁的队友是否被什么野兽噬走:P

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Day 3 (05/11/2005) – 挥不去的色彩

睁开眼睛,又是美好的一天。早餐有KM和阿Leong准备的咸鱼炒饭,以及热腾腾的咖啡。收拾营地,不留下痕迹,再次背上那背包,撤退。总觉得不好意思,背包最轻就是我的。一路上水源不断,所以水不必多带,大概三大瓶就足以供我们六人喝。宗华二话不说把两大瓶塞进自己的包包;垃圾则由老虎和CC来扛。离开前在石洞里拍了一张全家福,把一切回忆摄进照片里。

早上10.15出发,我们采用昨天KM和宗华探到的路。虽然路不明显,但KM肯定说那路是通的,要是不通,他将请吃KLG。果然,没多久我们出到了主路。回程路较简单容易,宗华用他那嘹亮的歌声划破长空。

KM不时取出他那GPS卫星定位仪来测量距离、位置,和计算所走里程。当树林太厚,KM就把GPS定在长棒上,来一个‘Thunder Cat’的姿式接收讯号。由于第一天下了一场豪雨,许多树倒塌,偶尔还要趴着穿过丛林。走在前端的老虎替我们披荆斩棘,KM在后也用新检到的另一把铲披荆斩棘。我们一度进入了竹林,走到尽头无路可走,才发觉又走错路了,掉头就走。大伙儿恰似在赶路的,间中没有多少的休息。和第一天来时路一样,用了约2-3小时来到Last Water Point,再跋过几条河和那急流,又和山蛭交战。老虎一直在担心受伤的膝盖会疼痛。

走了约五小时的路,我们就到达原住民村庄。小孩子显得有些害羞,把剩余的饼干都给了孩子们吃。登一次山总丢一些东西,宗华把他那双破烂的袜子丢掉,老虎则把他那烂鞋丢掉,而我,则把烂旧的自己丢掉。在Sungai Woh洗过澡后精神焕发,约五时离开白岩峰,离开村庄,离开孩子们,带走的是满载的回忆,双腿上的疤痕,以及被sand fly叮得满手满脚和满颈的红斑。

咱们在山脚的一家快餐厅用餐,从那儿远眺白岩山,它就在那山峦起伏的山脉里。山顶明显的有浓密乌云,看来又是一场滂沱大雨。离别前,KM上前和我握一握手,恭喜我完成我的第一座山。

如果这一回攀登白岩峰要给一首主题曲的话,我想我还是会选择五佰的钢铁男子。

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后记:

那山
隐藏了万年历史
千年的心事
百年的秘密
岁月带不走它的忧愁
一生一世
不知在为谁守候
却是那林一辈子最可靠的依赖

那林
为那山批上翠绿的衣裳
酝酿深厚的雨林
呈现顽强的生命力
为万物庇护

那阳
生命因此而展开
野花因此而绽放
昼夜与那雾交替着
围绕在林间
偶尔
他们还能有短暂的相遇

那雾
为山林披上薄薄面纱
却怎么也揭不开它的秘密与心事

那雨
让河床活着
滋润林间万物
却洗不掉片片红尘
磨练着小植物的能耐
促使它们茁壮成长

那河
可以是潺潺流水
也可以是万马奔腾
滔滔不绝
是一种能量
也是一种希望

而我们
来时一行六人
去时也一行六人
一条无形的线
牵绑着的是六颗心一个愿
彼此团结互助
没人会孤单无助
白岩山万年屹立不倒的缘故
大概就是为人们
提供艰难的风险与磨练
必要时
给予安全感与寄托感
让我们对白岩山致敬。。。

星期二, 11月 08, 2005

6th Annual Mountaineering Trip – Gunung Batu Putih (03-05/11/2005)

The Team (from left to right)
Chee Chung (CC)
Wan Lin (老虎)
Chong Wah (CW)
Captain Kam Meng (KM)
Ah Leong
Me (holding camera :P)

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Introduction to Gunung Batu Putih 白岩峰简介
8th highest in Peninsular Malaysia 大马半岛第八高峰
Height 高度:2131m (6993’)
Location 地点:Kuala Woh, Tapah, Perak.
Difficulty 难度:Level 3
Highlight 经典:Campsite at the cave
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Summary:

Gunung Batu Putih, here we go!
6 of us at the quest, Kam Meng, Wan Lin, Ah Leong, Chong Wah, Chee Chung and Chui Miew which led by Kam Meng.

Day 1 – 03/11/2005
The starting point was at the end of an Orang Asli village which is located beside a water dam. We started to move our steps to the jungle at 10.15am the river (Sungai Woh) was at our right hand side, after 40 min hiking, we crossed two rivers right before the joining point of the two rivers. We arrived at the last water point at about 1pm.

We took about 4 hours to reach to the first campsite, the cave. The path was tiring and full of leeches and mosquitoes. We met another team with size of 10 from Tapah at the campsite, they told us that there was another path to the cave.

Rain heavily since 2pm, never stop until the next morning. The nearest water source was about 5min hike from the cave, it neither a river nor a stream, but a hole with water flows. We slept on the rock side by side with our sleeping bag. Beside KM and WL, the rest of the sleeping bags were wet due to the heavy rain and only with one layer of plastic bag as cover.

Day 2 – 04/11/2005
2nd day, we heading to the peak of Mount Batu Putih at about 10.30am, then we arrived at the peak successfully after 3 hours plus of climbing. The path to the peak was formed by roots and branches of trees. The environment was wet and reachable by sunlight as we can see variety of fungus on the tree branches.

There was a spacious flat ground at the peak with a tower marking The Peak of Gunung Batu Putih. We were there at 2131m above the sea level. We descended the mountain at about 2pm and back to our campsite by 5pm.

Same dinner dishes as last night except the canned fish. At night, it was the massage time for all. We went into the dream with insects’ singing voice and of cause, slept with sand flies.

Day 3 – 05/11/2005
The descending path became harder when the way was slippery and some trees fell and blocked the path after the heavy rain at the first day. We went into the wrong path of fallen bamboo. Luckily the river level wasn’t too deep, we crossed the river successfully and returned to the village after 5 hours climb.

After taking quick bath at Sungai Woh, it was already 5pm. We left the mountain, the village, and the children, but definitely not the memory, the scars, and the sand fly bites.

Note:
The 6th Annual Mountaineering Trip seemed to be having too many obstacles.

Plan A
Initially, our famous mountain climbing organizer, Kam Meng planned for a 6D5N trip at G. Gerah (The 11th highest mountain in Peninsular Malaysia). However the response wasn’t that tremendous which might cause the teammates to bear a very high cost for the 4WD rental, so Kam Meng decided to changed plan.

Plan B
Here is the Plan B, 4D3N at Gunung Chamah (The 5th highest mountain in Peninsular Malaysia) via Gua Musang. Gunung Chamah was the destination of 5th Annual Mountaineering Trip in 2004, due to few of the teammates didn’t manage to reach to the peak, Kam Meng and guys were so eager to visit Chamah again. Unfortunately, Plan B wasn’t work at the end due to the 4WD arrangement problem occurred. We had no choice to drop Chamah with tears.

Plan C
Finally, we met and discussed for the Plan C at Kam Meng’s house in Jeram the 9 hours before departure for the climb. We had options of 4D3N at Gunung Pas (the peak next to Gunung Irau) or 3D2N at Gunung Batu Putih (8th highest mountain in Peninsular Malaysia). We chosen Gunung Batu Putih located at Kuala Koh, where this was the 2nd attempt for CC and WL but the 6th attempt for Kam Meng (wow!).

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More details coming soon... stay tuned!

星期一, 11月 07, 2005

瓦解的山盟

那一天,
我声明请你等我的到来。
可是,
我没来到。
就这样,
我们错过了这百年重逢。

原来,
瓦解承诺,
不再是男人的专长。
许过的承诺,
其实还那么脆弱,
如风一样,
吹过了就不再回来,
如水一样,
流走了也就是走了,
再重的山盟海誓,
却如浮云一样轻盈,
掠过天空没有痕迹。

如果我再请你等我,
你还愿意吗?

(我们一行人最后并没到Gunung Chamah去,遗憾,真是遗憾!)

星期一, 10月 31, 2005

百年重逢

我假似,山上的野花在等着我来采摘。
我假似,山谷的河流在念着我的名字。
我假似,山间的树林在等着我来拥抱。
我假似,风吹过时,树叶与树叶之间在低语,猜想着我什么时候会到来?
我假似,浓雾在阳光出来前,紧紧把我拥进怀里。
我假似,这是一场老朋友的相遇。

尽管我们从来没有邂逅过,
我却有着一股莫名的感觉,
觉得我曾来过,
就在百年前。

恰似我曾在风中起舞,
恰似我曾在山岗上高歌,
恰似我曾在冰冷的流水洗涤心灵,
恰似我曾在冷夜里洒泪。

我们能有多少个百年?
我们能有多少个重逢?
期待这一场重逢,
请你
等我的到来。

(Gunung Chamah的前言。我假似,我也像部分队友一样与Gunung Chamah 重逢)

星期一, 10月 24, 2005

My First Ever 20km Run

I just made my first ever 20km run.
Unbelievable! Even I can’t believe that I can ever make it.
I just did that without enough mental preparation in advanced, but full of motivation and determination during running.
It was tough at the last 5km, muscles were so tired, and foot was getting pain. At the moment where I almost wanted to give up running, I told myself to keep running, just keep running, don’t stop, the destination is right in front of the corner.
20km isn’t a matter for most of you, but it is a good start for me.

Any idea what philosophy had I applied?
As long as you keep living, the hope is there.
As long as you keep running, the hope is there.
(只要还活着就有希望。只要还跑着就有希望)

星期一, 10月 17, 2005

雨天

总觉得雨天特别诗情画意
在东海岸长大
早就习惯了季侯风的雨季
不管是棉棉细雨
还是狂风暴雨
只要身在安全的地方
都会被雨水深深吸引
喜欢雨前的土味
那是一种大地的气息
天下万物皆得滋润
像一个沉睡的巨人被什么唤醒
像千个微妙的精灵被什么召唤
像一种仪式,一种太阳和雨水交替的仪式

年少的时候总希望在大雨中奔跑呐喊
当时还念中学
下雨时总会没有专心听课
反而把视线移到窗外朦胧的雨天
细心听看晶莹透亮的雨滴
下课时就跑到走廊外
伸出小手触摸冰凉的雨水
正如我的名字
为了茁壮成长
为了长成茂盛的大树
为了人群有一份清凉
翠绿的树苗永远都期待那一颗水滴

念大专时
就不能再像以往那么奔放
开始收藏对雨天蠢蠢欲动的情绪
不再走到走廊去触摸冰凉的雨水
却爱到图书馆最靠近落地玻璃窗的位置
静静看着雨水滑落的情景
如果在家的话
就会泡一杯咖啡
俸着咖啡杯到阳台细嚼咖啡看细雨分飞

步出校园以后
很少再有机会欣赏雨景
以往的天真烂漫诗情画意已难再寻
自从那次在Gunung Rajah 的淋雨经验后
再次唤起心灵对雨水的溺爱

前一天的傍晚
心里正想去跑步
天空却下起细雨来
我坚决穿起跑步鞋
往跑道跑去
雨水渗杂著汗水
再也分不清是雨是汗,还是泪
像回到了最初的感觉
在雨中奔跑
当细雨轻轻的打在脸上时
心里有一种莫名的满足感
也许那是来自坚持的满足感
对跑步的坚持和对雨天的坚持

星期四, 10月 13, 2005

小姐,你终于笑了

你最后一次笑起来是什么时候,还记得吗?
大概就是前一分钟吧?
前几天我在一家餐厅刚用过午餐,正要离开的时候对招待员笑了一笑。他忽然说了一句令我防不胜防的话:小姐,你终于笑了。
我惊慌失措,不知该如何反应是好,就在停顿了0.01秒之后,我又再对他笑了一笑。
步出餐馆后,好像被什么插了一下,一阵微痛的醒了起来。然后继续思索,刚才用餐时我是把笑容遗弃了在办公室呢,还是在倒酱油时丢弃了在酱油瓶里?
一个男招待员大概就只会注意漂亮的女人吧?而为什么他会去注意一个不笑的女人呢?
开始觉得恐怖起来,如果那招待员没有提醒我的话,我的笑容会被遗弃到天荒地老吗?

也还有一次,中五的年尾,地点是在教室。那时也忘了怎的,我忽然大笑起来,一位同学瞪大双眼好惊讶的望着我说:好久没见过你笑啦!
事隔整十年了,我依然还记得那么清楚。

曾经参加无数的培训营啊或是生活营之类的。有和我一路走来的朋友都会发现,我在后来几届的营中冷漠了很多。甚至在营中会收到一些营友的飞鸽传书,温暖的问候说,怎么啦,累了吗?干嘛不见你笑啊?有些还会很搞笑的说,小姐,你好酷哦!

投入工作以后,偶尔会有些同事给予回应说:你好严肃啦,你好认真啦之类的。。(不是认真的女人最美丽吗?)
偶尔偶尔,也会有朋友鼓励我说:你笑起来很好看吔!

每经任何人提起‘你笑了’的时候,才发现,原来我已经忘了笑。然后,就会对提醒我的人展开最真诚的笑容。

其实笑是不需要任何理由,也不需要大脑的指示,笑本来就是一件很美妙又自然的事,我也很喜欢笑啊,只是忘了而已。

如果下次你也看见冷漠的我,记得提醒我,如果你不想说‘你笑起来很好看吔!’,至少也说‘笑一笑啊!’。
我保证,一定有灿烂的笑容回报。:D

星期一, 10月 10, 2005

What Do You Fear the Most?

I have been thinking about this question after coming back from my company Off Site Meeting in Malacca.

This is one the questions in a questionnaire for a wonderful activity planned by the organizers. Apparently my answer to this question is ‘NOTHING’.

We had only few minutes to complete the entire questionnaire, meaning that time is a constraint. At the moment, when I read the question, my brain started to spin (like a hard disk start looking for the answer from the sectors). After a few seconds, I decided to skip this question first because I really had no idea about the answer.

The answer could be as simple as just an insect or as deep as a life’s philosophy.
The possible answers that actually first flashed in my mind were cockroach, rat, snake, spider…

Emm… may be it could be a situation for example exam, presentation, losing trust, losing relationship, losing friends and family, death, paralyzed, no money, no woman, can’t get married, etc…
Or it could be a feeling like loneliness, darkness, depression or whatever…
Or may be it is someone who having terrible attitude, bad behavior, or personalities that you can’t stand for…

How about unknown creature?
Yourself?

Seriously, this is a super tough question!

I have been thinking and analyzing all the possible answers that I could think of after the trip, for example:

Do you fear to death? (人总会一死,或轻于鸿毛,或重于泰山If I enjoy every second in my life, if I treasure everyone in my life, if I do everything good without regret in my life, why should I fear to death?)
Do you fear if you find yourself can’t do running, climbing, cycling and swimming anymore? (If my legs are broken, I still have my pair of arms to take over my leg’s function, if I’m blind, I still can do sports with guide…)
Do you fear if you are infected by AIDS? (AIDS patients just like a normal human, sometimes they can perform better than a normal person, what do you fear about?)
Do you fear if you are poor? (Life still going on…)
Do you fear if you losing your beloved family member? (You already know they can’t be with you forever, love them as much as you can before you regret.)
Do you fear if you are a single mother? (Single mother is a great mother though…)
And so on…

What was in my mind simply 'no matter how bad the situation is, there is a way to overcome it'.

My dear, there is nothing to be feared.
Every threat is an opportunity.
There is a hidden force inside our soul,
Unleash the power when the time has come,
Stand up and fight back.

So my friend, what do you fear the most?

也许
当我们随着年龄的增长时
就会拥有越多
因为害怕失去,害怕改变
拥有越多的时候就会有越多的恐惧感

生命的每一个渡口
都处在不一样的环境
牵连着不一样的人
或许当你的生命出现了那个陪你携手到老的人时
你最大的恐惧就是失去你最爱的人
或许当你的生命出现了亲生骨肉时
你最大的恐惧就是失去你的孩子
或许当你的生命有了房子和金钱时
你最大的恐惧就是在一夜之间失去所有

或许或许。。。

大概现在我还有资格天不怕地不怕
反正也是粗命一条
天生天养
四海为家
只有这种人才能那么洒脱
而生命总该曾经潇洒走一回
一旦生命牵连了别人时
事情就不再这么简单

然而宇宙那么大
再伟大的人也还那么渺小
也许就因为我连尘埃也不及
什么恐惧也微小得不见踪影

不过还是老一句
做好自己的本份
不管对人、事、物
都给予最真诚的态度与行为
不管天下再乱
就别让生命有遗憾!

星期三, 10月 05, 2005

遇见彩虹


有个早晨,驾着车子准备上班时,就在一个拐弯处,惊喜的遇见了彩虹!当然这不是第一次看见彩虹,不过这倒是第一次看见如此真实的彩虹。每当遇见彩虹都会莫名的喜悦,心情会变得舒畅,就像一个累了的孩子回到了他熟悉而温暖的被窝,那是一种安全感,也是一种安慰。就算全世界遗弃了他,也只有彩虹能温柔的给他一个拥抱。

望着地平线,
彩虹仿佛从土中生长,
往天际伸沿,
天际还遥远,
每每都呈现一道不完整的七彩天桥。
这座天桥到底为谁而建?
要连接到那一端?
是谁的信息?
它为谁而活,又为谁而死?
如果这真是一座桥,
我也希望能漫步云端。
此时此刻,
人们都希望能和自己最爱的人并肩欣赏,
就算没能并肩,
也希望他/她就在彩虹的另一端感受同样的美好时刻。
短暂而精彩的生命,
浪漫的情怀直叫世人感叹。

雨后就是天晴,
再糟糕的天气都会过去,
也许就是那道彩虹,
给你勇气和鼓励,
让你在风雨之后站起来。
就像哪个累了的孩子,
在悲伤沮丧以后得到安慰。

我一直都深信,
只要心里有彩虹,
处处都有彩虹。

换个角度,
七彩的彩虹就在你左右。

星期三, 9月 28, 2005

和Gunung Rajah 的一夜情 (24-25/09/2005)

星期六凌晨四点,百般不愿的从梦中醒来,必须在五点钟到Leong 的屋子集合。五点半,大伙儿到齐后就出发。我朦朦胧胧地上了圆霖的车,懒洋洋地坐在车上什么话也不想说。圆霖的车有我,Leong 和Wai Leng;Kam Meng 的车有Jeff, Alan 和Francine.

大概一个多小时,来到文冬这个被山围绕的小镇。最后一次来文冬,大概是整十年前来参加的培训营。当时我就是在清晨里被山间的浓雾给迷住了,那段记忆仿佛又再被这儿的浓雾唤醒。我们在一家餐馆用了早点,再打包午餐,就起程前往Chamang Waterfall。路上凉风习习,真令人心旷神怡。

大概八时,我们把各自的背包整理好准备上山。起程时间是早上8点35分,由Kam Meng 带队,圆霖压阵。背包我可背得多,山也有爬过一些,但背着约9公斤的背包上山也倒是第一次!开始的路都是黄泥路,瀑布在我们的左手边,路上看见好多漂亮的大蝴蝶,和志气高昂的野姬花。

看见第一朵野姬花时顿时兴奋起来。我对野姬花就是情有独锺,她们是如此自信美丽,而且很有气质的在山上活着。之后陆陆续续的都可以轻易看见她们的踪影,她们就穿插在路边两旁狂野展沿的猪笼草和Paku-pakis之间,而她们就是如此存活下来。

阵容里全军都是第一次来Gunung Rajah,走错路总是难免的。Kam Meng 还以为在这路的尽头要过河到彼岸,原来我们只不过在一个分叉路口拐错过了弯。渐渐又回到路上。我们慢慢的进入深山,在约12点抵达另一个瀑布,在大石头上用了午餐,喝过了清澈的河水,休息片刻后继续往深山走去。大约两点,我们来到瀑布边的campsite。这只是山腰,离山峰还遥远哩。Francine 和圆霖决定留在campsite,其他人就把背包丢下,持着备用的东西继续往山峰走去。

卸下了笨重的背包,顿时有种放下包袱的轻松感。这时候大家健步如飞,在森林奔跑着上山,一方面是我们都轻松很多,一方面是我们真的在赶时间。无论能不能抵达山峰,我们必须在下午4点半前下山,不然天黑了可就麻烦。此时此刻,想起Lord of The Rings的Aragon, Legolas 等人在森林赶路的一幕。由于路程渐渐缓慢下来,中午4点,我们只能抵达在一个山腰间的休息处,望着彼岸的Gunung Rajah,心里暗暗自叹遗憾。。

这就叫遗憾美吗?得不到的东西永远都是最美的?距离就是最漂亮缘分?

我在歇息时冷得鸡皮疙瘩,这儿的高度大概有千多公尺吧。彼岸还遥远,可望而不可即,只好在这儿持着国旗拍照留念。

下山时雷雨交加,Wai Leng担心下雨的森林,我却像蛟龙般对雨水欢呼。雨水仿佛把森林里的所有灵气都散发出来,顿时感觉清凉无比。每一草一木一寸土,被雨水洗涤后都呈现出被滋润的幸福。

我们在天黑以前回到campsite。本来如此婉约的瀑布现在变得如此澎湃沸腾,可见水的力量可以如小溪般细微浪漫,也可以像万尺瀑布般雄伟豪壮。

就因瀑布如洪水,我们都没法泡浸水里洗澡。马马虎虎的吃过晚餐,回帐篷铺好睡袋及地毯后,在Wai Leng的引诱下,我也懒得出去就索性也倒头大睡,当时才晚上八点多。看看大腿留下一道约五寸长的轻微淤血,加上以前留下的疤痕,刚好形成一个钩,像足Nike商标。原来品牌也能在皮肤上打广告!赶路的途中杂草树支像刀光剑影般挥来斩去,小腿也因此被割花。


听说有Kam Meng在的爬山阵容就有丰富的晚餐,而我这次肯定是倒霉了,因为我们只有快熟面加肉干作晚餐。夜里睡到迷迷糊糊时,忽然听见圆霖在帐篷外喊我,我迷迷糊糊地走出去,也不晓得发生什么事。原来那几个寂寞的男人只是想找个女人谈谈天天说说地地罢了 :P

我反正都醒来,就顺道抬头仰望天空,希望看到细碎的星星也好,谁知厚云胧盖整个天空,什么星光也看没有!我忽然想起空手道的其中一个道理,as empty as the sky, as solid as the mountain。学习空手道的哲学就是进入空的世界以达到忘我境界,气沉丹田,稳如泰山。

第二天清晨,我是最迟醒的那个,微微冷风吹来,感觉舒服极了。去到瀑布旁,一夜之间她又变得如此优雅有礼。站在冰冷的石块上对着千山万水刷着牙,果然别有一番风味。Hahahaha…
由于昨晚没能洗澡,本想在这清晨泡一泡浴,但还是因水太冷而不敢领教。

山水是如此清甜美味,装了一些进瓶子,收拾场地,确定没有遗留任何一点垃圾,就开始路程下山去。再次背起那包袱,脚踏实地的一步一步走回来时路。圆霖说,扛帐篷的人是队里最伟大的,而我觉得,扛垃圾的人也很伟大。

一路上遇见相同的过客,彩蝶、野姬花、山蛭、蜜蜂。Wai Leng 和Leong遇上了山蛭,而Jeff却遇上了蜜蜂。大概下午1点半,终于来到起点,也是终点。到Chamang Waterfall 洗过澡清凉一下后,就离开这绿油油的青山。

和Gunung Rajah 的一夜情,不过如此而已。每每想起他,就如伍佰的钢铁男子这首歌,另我对他的爱意又再渐渐加厚。

擦去转身离去之後不争气的泪
灿烂笑容渗杂著汗水
真的累你看不出我的伤悲
景色还是一样的美

忘记昨日一切其实还没有准备
新的明天如何去面对
我需要安慰让悲伤的人不流泪
迎向太阳头也不回

告诉我

像个钢铁般的男子
我会藏起我所有的心事
像座坚强的山能抵挡风和雨
浓雾若散去抬起头遥望著天际
明天又是一片翠绿

像个钢铁般的男子
我会藏起我所有的心事
将我热情的心随季节而冷却
没有尽头前方的路途还遥远
就算感动也无所谓

一切都将成回忆无法抹灭的过去
会随著时间慢慢地模糊的痕迹
就让它去
或许有一天会想起
生命之中曾经战胜自己

星期四, 9月 22, 2005

Run, Forrest run!


好多年以前的电影,Forrest Gump. 这一个晚上,再次重温这部电影。
戏里最经典的一句话就是Run, Forrest run! 这是Forrest 的女人曾经对他说过好几遍的一句话。

因为这一句话,Forrest 被大学发掘成为美式足球明星。
因为这一句话,Forrest 得以在战乱中活过来。
因为这一句话,Forrest从城的一端跑到另一端,就这样的足足跑了好几年。
在他不停的跑着的时候,可以从他的眼神看出那一份执著,仿佛毫无杂念,持续的跑着,也许他也弄不清楚为何要跑,总之就是keep running。

我想,他就只是凭着坚持不懈,才能不停的跑上好几年。
他就只是凭着坚持不懈,才能把长久思念的女人娶过来。

我想,只要我们对某种热诚也坚持不懈,不可能的事也会变成可能。

星期一, 9月 19, 2005

中秋与幸福

中秋,落在二十四个节气的白露与秋分之中。
单凭一个秋字,足以勾起你的思绪,令你掉入思念的深渊。
皓洁的月圆高挂空中,秋风瑟瑟,就在这个落叶的季节里,别有一番凄美的滋味。

所谓月圆花好,好事成双,哪管天涯海角也想和心爱的人千里共婵娟。
中秋不再要来庆祝,而是共渡。

仿佛中秋就是圆满的定义,幸福的象征。
再无情的人也会在这一天收敛铁石心肠。
再无情的人也不忍在这一天伤害任何人。

寻找月光的踪影,编制美丽的童话与承诺,星河因此多了许多人的愿望。
每一对如胶似漆的有情人会多了一份期望,伤感的失落人会多了一份惆怅。
这一天,幸福的人会更幸福,寂寞的人会更寂寞。

金鱼还是小鱼儿? 野姬花还是玫瑰花?

每天一大清早醒来最先想起的是那群金鱼,它们每天每时每刻就在缸里游来游去,有人靠近时就争先恐后浮起来把嘴巴开的大大等待食物送上。看到它们馋嘴的样子就笑了。

接下来就是到阳台去看看绿葱葱的种植物。大片大片叶子的芋叶偶尔会给你一些惊喜,不过几天又一大片叶子给长了出来。水姬花总在我醒来前绽开白色的花瓣。最主要的是看看大花盆里的小鱼儿,看见它们还无恙心就安了。一直以来都特别担心这一群小鱼儿,怕它们被太阳晒得太热,又怕氧气不够或什么的。毕竟它们没有里面那群金鱼那么好命,有过滤器又有足够的氧气。

也许那群小鱼儿天生天养,适应能力极强。有一次我在替它们换水时不小心弄伤了一尾鱼,心想也许它过不了今晚,内疚万分。谁知它就是奇迹般的活了下来。而且过两天当我再仔细注意,花盆里还多了几尾小鱼儿的孩子呢!

实在棒极了,这一群小鱼儿是我一手带大的,它们的生死和我息息相关。曾经它们也像这些孩子们一样幼小脆弱,看着它们慢慢长大,雄的身体开始长出鲜艳的颜色,而雌的就开始产卵,下一代就这么诞生了!

忽然觉得自己好象母亲一般,看着孩子不断成长,直到它们传宗接代以后心里即欢喜又觉欣慰。我会特别疼爱这群孩子,毕竟它们不比金鱼漂亮出色,但它们的生命力比任何我所见过的鱼还要顽强很多倍。

我不晓得小鱼儿有没有埋怨自己不如那群金鱼,但我猜它们从来不理会谁的迹遇比较好,而它们只活在当下,朝自己的人生目标前进。
有些人会埋怨自己为何迹遇不如人,没有生在豪门?
有些花会埋怨自己为何不是玫瑰花,人见人爱?
有些树也会埋怨自己为何不是一棵雄伟的大榕树?

如果我是深山里的一棵野姬花,我不会因为没人欣赏而放弃我的美丽,毕竟我并不为了别人的青睬而绽放。不管有没有人经过深山瞧见我,我一样不分昼夜绽放我的美丽,我一样为知己感到自豪。

如果我是一株野草,我不会自爆自弃或嚷着要像大芋叶般威风凛凛。我一样会像因为我那强悍的生命力而感到骄傲。

我就是我,天生我才必有用。埋怨不见得给你任何好处,反而面对自己,接受自己,疼爱自己,做回自己,才会活出自己。

星期六, 9月 17, 2005

If there is a Will, there is a Way

In years back, I was so worried of jogging or so called long distance running. I was damn lousy in running, besides the speed running like 100m or 200m, I was never good at long run.

After the cycling trip, my teammates keep encouraging me in running, especially WL, the King of The Road.
I doubt at myself, can I do that? Immediately I heard an answer from the dark side of me saying ‘No’. The most I can run continuously without any stop/rest is 3km, excuse me, and were you just said 10km?

On the way home from Kuantan – KL while I was driving, I kept thinking ‘Can I run?’ Can I run on the road as well as WL and CW? Oh My God, running is my major weakness!

Doubt and Will were co-existed at the same time. Now is the war time between both of them, I felt the tug-of-war between Doubt and Will.

After coming back from PCC Interstate, I kept my bike aside. In fact it is too exhausted and need a rest. I made up my mind to overcome this obstacle which blocking my way heading towards running. I grabbed the last chance of the last day of Mega Sales, bought a pair of Nike’s running shoes.

That’s the start of the running history in my life.

For the first time I ran at Shah Alam Lake, the result was extremely terrible. I was so disappointed to myself, and start blaming myself why am I spending so much on the running shoes yet it did not help….

Sub conscious mind is conquering my brain. Am I going to give up? When I was resting beside the lake, I told myself, this is only the beginning my dear, you can’t become an excellent horse without training.

So I made a rendezvous to myself at this lake again tomorrow.

The next day, I came to the same battle filed, ran on the same running track, and the same situation happened exactly the same. At the first 2km, I exhausted like hell, loosen strength at my tight, I can’t step any movements further anymore! I just stopped and regret. That's sucks!

It was disappointment again.
When I was about to give up running, I somehow ‘saw’ a group of people running great in front of me, and look, they were WL, CW and gang!

I told myself, no worry my dear, training takes time, no one can perform freaking well at the first time! Come again next time, let’s show your unleashed power!

Apparently the Will is more likely to win the Doubt.

The last time I was running, I start feeling satisfaction at my running record. Although it was not comparable with CW/WL/RW, but I noticed that I had improvement throughout every training.

Every time before I start running, I gave myself a target, let’s say today I’m going to run one round in 15 minutes, or simply just telling myself no matter how long I take, I got to finish two rounds.

Normally for the first round of the lake that I ran (too bad I don’t even know the distance), it was like the warming up level, it is a milestone and bottleneck, once I hit that level successfully, I can last longer. That’s the most vulnerable time of giving up, when that evil mind rises, I start thinking of the Nike advertisement, Leave the Old You at Behind!
And I kept running.

Day by day, training by training, I see improvement, feel satisfaction, I almost whacked the old mine down and left it behind. The most dangerous enemy is me myself, every training I was fighting within myself. I’m not comparing my running performance with others, but with the last’s me.

It’s simply the greatest feeling of wining me myself.
Since I have the Will, that’s why there is a Way. Let me train the wild horse to be the best before letting it goes to unleash its power.

星期五, 9月 16, 2005

PCC Interstate 2005 (Compiled by Chong-Wah Chan)

Kuantan – Batu Rakit

Chui Miew: aka the Karate Queen. Black belt! Think twice if you try to be naughty with her.
Hin Wai: aka the Guitar King. Now, in porno… Oops, photographing as well.
Wan Lin: aka King of the Road (konon. J). Kam Meng’s apprentice in organizing trips.
Chong Wah: I am just a humble human who ready to serve for good cause…
Rho Wen: aka Wild Horse. Hard to control once got released


Day 1
From-to: Kuantan-Kijal
Hotel: Strawberry Kijal
Distance (km) :107
Time Taken: 4:29
Average Speed (km/h) : 22.7
Max Speed (km/h) : 58

Day 2
From-to: Kijal-Marang
Hotel: Anguillia Beach Hse Resort
Distance (km) :133
Time Taken: 5:13
Average Speed (km/h) : 25.3
Max Speed (km/h) : 45.4

Day 3
From-to: Marang- Batu Rakit
Hotel: Gem Beach Resort
Distance (km) :110
Time Taken: 4:20
Average Speed (km/h) : 25
Max Speed (km/h) : 47.4

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Sun, 28Aug05, Kuantan-Kijal 107km

Merely a 4 hours sleep after we rushed from KL to Kuantan for InterState 2005, Kuantan-Batu Rakit Merdeka Cycling trip. At 0430, we had got our baggage ready on our support car, WL’s tough look Kia Sportage. Final check on our bikes, off we headed to Hotel Vistana to meet up the rest of the cyclists.

After the registration and loading our baggage to the official baggage vehicle, we started our first ‘chain reaction’ at 0600 sharp with the lead of the safety vehicles to make sure the road was clear for a swamp of 100+ bikes. It was indeed an exquisite scene where the main road flocked with blinking red rear lights & front lights from bikes.

We were heading to a light industry area then into oil palm plantation area via a narrow, stony & pitted tar road. Exactly at 20km, my back tyre punctured. God, not a good start at all! Thanks to RW & CM for their skillful pit stop like tyre change action. Shame on me, they are girls! WL, who is our support car driver on 1st day, arrived on time with the foot pump. Eventually, we spent about 20min to have the wheels rolling on the road again.

We had a short break at 51km. CM started to grumble that she had have enough. We also started to psycho her that she can do it and she should try to exceed her own limit. We got our feet on the pedals again and heading towards Kemaman. Rolling hills awaited us! There were so many camel backs to overcome. One of the steepest ascents almost made me felt that my bike was actually going backward! When HW overtook me, somehow, it stimulated my thigh muscles to generate more ATPs to attack the hill like mad! I feel good every time I beat a hill which deserted with a speedy decent. I often enjoy watching my speedometer’s raising reading while doing an aerodynamic posture. Lifting my butt, head keeps close to the handler, eyes stare in front. I could feel the wheel spins so hard, making a hissing sound; the air glides swiftly through my face, and, ventilating fast through the helmet. That’s when you could feel the SPEED!

After the hilly route, it is a flat tar road where I started to lead in front for the rest to draft. We were heading towards Cukai town where the famous Hai Peng Coffee Shop awaiting our arrival to refill our stomach at 85km. We rode in a faster speed as I was driven by my own hunger for a good lunch. We arrived at noon. The shop was crowded with tourists, locals & 100+ cyclists to have a sip on their aromatic coffee and charcoal toasted roti. Really nice! Somehow, it seemed that only me who still having a good appetite. I wanted to order more but the rest didn’t show much enthusiastic on the nice foods there. May be CM & HW who are from Kuantan felt no fuss to the foods there.

With the newly loaded carbo to be burnt, we waived good bye to Cukai town. At 99km, Perwaja Steel factory was within our sight. We were able to maintain our steady speed until we finally reached Strawberry Hotel. Touch down… We congratulated each other, especially those 1st timers like CM & HW. They surprised us and themselves I suppose to have finished the day 1 in a good shape. It is all about ‘Mind set’ as I kept telling them.

Due to some mistake by the organizer, 2 groups of cyclists tried to check in a same room. Eventually, we made the way although we had already settled down in the room in prior. Dislike a fellow’s bossy attitude.

At evening, we went out to the beach side. Only 2 morons took along their office material to read at the beach (me and WL :-). The rest were having a good time with the sea. It was so relaxing while watching CM & RW on swimsuit. My only comment is, they were not sexy enough… Too many clothes on themselves… Oops, I should continue my reading J

At night, we enjoyed the video taken by WL earlier. I know WL was very itchy to put his feet on the pedals next day. I just can’t find my toiletry bag! I went back to the previous room to look for it as I might have left it behind. None of them saw my accessory bag though. Damn it! I slept with anxiety…



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Mon, 29Aug05, Kijal-Marang 133km

At 0530, I woke up with a moody face. My mouth still tasting the bananas I had before my sleep. No teeth brushing, no face cleaning. Hate it! Rushing for the 0600 2nd day flag-off. Grab my bike and baggage and head to the starting point. Once I threw my baggage into a truck, the bossy cyclist came to me and told me that my toiletry bag was in their room! I was more than happy to hear that rather than put anger on them! It was a great morning to start with though my mouth still smelt like banana. Today, CM will take over from WL to drive the support car.

The longest distance of the trip, 133km begins. At 0600, the main road was so dark. We could only spot the blinking red lights. I never like to cycle in the dark! It makes me feel unsafe with ‘unknowns’ awaiting you until your front light reaches it.

We had been told it will be an ‘all-flat’ day. WL led the group as I had done my duty on the 1st day. He pedaled so hard like a just released mad cow! 30, 32, 31km/h… were the ticking readings on my speedometer. All managed to follow tightly. Passing by the Petronas & ExxonMobil’s crude oil ternimal. The plant is so huge, which covers hectares & km of area. A genuine heavy industry. Just about 2hr, we arrived at a Chinese stall for a break at 56km. CM was there already with the support car. First words came out from my mouth to her was why the heck she didn’t shoot us with RW’s video cam. Because I know I look great in video J No battery... L We were among the earliest troops to arrive. I felt the stiffness on my thighs already. I was scared that I couldn’t last long. ‘Mind set’…! Replenish my empty bottle with 100+ and mixed it with 2 packs of energy powder. Taste great! Just want to make sure dehydration & cramp were away from me.

At 61km, once we made a left turning at a junction, it was a ‘Oh My God’ seafront scene! Once CM’s car overtook us, I quickly called her to stop for photo session. The breeze was refreshing. The seafront was captivating. The camera never stops clicking J We strolled into a suburban town and paced towards Marang. We managed to catch up a medium speed peloton & drafting them. I had saved up a lot of energy for not fighting the wind at the front. We did stop by a motor shop to have HW’s bike fixed. Loosen nuts. Each pedaling he did, the joint will ‘TICK’ once. I teased him that it was his RPM indicator. It was annoying though.

Anggullia Resort! The ultimate destination of the day. My longest single day ride ever, 133km! Surprisingly, I didn’t feel the fatigue that I was expected! I felt my body was ready for the last day. My mixing of the energy substances with 100+ must be working well on me! Checked in to a neat chalet nearby the seaside. Having the coconut juice that CM bought us was so rewarding!

Goodness, I realized I had accidentally put my baggage onto a wrong truck instead of the official baggage truck! Investigation showed that it should be on a truck which driven by a group of Penangite cyclists. The bossy cyclist was one of them L Waiting for them to come back… Then, we decided to go out for lunch first. I had to borrow change from WL. Except his underwear of courseJ No doubt, it was as windy as the wind at east cost down there… wink wink *_*

We circled around the town for food. Then, we met ‘the truck’. Exchange of words confirmed that my bag was with them. Thank goodness. I had been the laughing stock of the day. My teammates labeled the bossy cyclist as my ‘lover’. We do have the fate to know each other from the hundreds in this trip J It is a blessing.

Evening time was the PCC group photo session! Everyone was on an official yellow shirt. Smile and say Cheese!

HW complained about his fingers movement after his 2nd day ride. He felt the numb and couldn’t bend his fingers. We thought it was alright and it shall gone soon. I teased him that caused by he spent too many time on guitar. A rainy night made me slept like a baby.



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Tue, 30Aug05, Marang- Batu Rakit 110km

Our last quest! Another 110km to wrap up the trip. Marang to Batu Rakit is only 50+km from main road. The organizer is kind enough to discover other alternative routes for us so that we could enjoy more sight seeing. HW’s fingers still having difficulty to bend as usual. I saw him still able to push a button on camera, so, it was ok (Piu… he still able to take our picturesJ). Luckily, it was his turn to drive. From a winding road, we strolled into the outskirt villages where booby trap was everywhere. The notorious Cow Dang! Freshly baked! Everyone was yelling ‘Oh Shit… Ooh Oh Shit’. Shit indeed. Later on, CM complained that RW’s rear tyre was actually splashed up a small piece of dang to her face! Puke!

We caught up with a big peloton which in size of 100+ school kids in uniform and with Jalur Gemilang. The parade leader was possessing no less than 5 flags on his bike. I suppose it was a typical school event to celebrate ‘Merdeka’ Day. As a patriotic youth, I led the vow of ‘Merdeka’ while passing them. They replied in a joyful louder volume! We all felt excited and proud. It feels great still.

Kuala Berang! We stopped for our breakfast. A sumptuous east coast local delicacy! 1st time in my life, I ate a curry puff with fish filling. In fact, mostly, the kuih muih are all with fish filling. It was so tasty! Chatted with some local postmen who curious about us! We all shared the same Merdeka eve joy.

Sun had been so kind to us for the past 2 days. Not today! We were roasted! The hot weather, UV and body heat started to tell me that I was tired. I got a second wind after a short break to regroup as some of the members were dropping further gradually. We also kept pumping water to hydrate ourselves. The last 20km, left only CM and me in group! WL left behind with his own pace, RW left us to tag with faster cyclist at a speed of 35km/h like remora fish (Traitor!). Poor CM had only me as cover. And, me, had nobody to cover! At least, I got CM as companion. Pity WL, only sun was with him. J

We were nearer to Batu Rakit for each pedaling we did. Chain and crank were swiveling well with each output from thighs to toes. Last 10km, we rode at 30km/h, CM still able to catch up. Great, I could put more focus on the road and maintaining the speed. I shouted out for the count down. 5km to go… 4km to go… 1km to go… Gem Beach Resort!

Cheeky RW came over to congratulate me and held my hands up and pose like winners. HW was video tapping. No wonder… We were the 2 in the group who survived in style throughout the 3 days of 350km. Shortly, WL arrived with his trademark smile! Officially, we declared “We all have made it”. Most importantly, we were all in one piece. God bless.

Had a very relaxing day. Soaking in the sea water, playing with the wave, peeping on bikini ladies, teasing each other for fun, sing together… WL continued his lonely walk along the beach. Must be missing his girl friend so much J Myself, already thought of my diving trip on the next day at Lang Tengah. The dinner was the most sumptuous one in 3 days. Lovely night to sleep in a cosy room.



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Wed, 31Aug05

I woke up late but still able to join the group for breakfast. HW showed me his catch-of-the-day in his camera. Goodness me, a sexy bikini lady! Mouth watering & saliva dripping man… yeah, that had improved my appetite so much.

After some effort to squeeze 3 human beings & 4 bikes into Kia Sportage, it was time to waive goodbye to WL, CM & HW as they headed back to Kuantan, then KL. Me, RW & Richard who arrived last night will head to Lang Tengah instead for diving trip.

It is such a satisfying trip! Last year, the experience of falling when I tried to do drifting like InitialD still haunting me! Now, it is a history. A special compliment to RW who had stuck to the group, and giving her support to the rest most of the time. Normally, she is the typical remora fish that will suck herself to a faster group. A handful wild horse to control J WL’s organizing is a legacy that we shall not take for granted. HW & CM should feel proud of themselves for their 1st taste of such long distance ride. Their face already stamped with the wordings of ‘Ask for More’ for such energy-dissipating event. Indeed, it is another milestone for everyone. For me, it is another chapter of my OutdoorXplorer.

星期三, 9月 07, 2005

PCC Interstate 2005 (28/08/2005 – 31/08/2005)


简介:跨州脚车行,从关丹开始一直骑到丁州BATU RAKIT,总共349 公里。
人物:我,Rho Wen (RW),Wan Lin (WL),Hin Wai (HW),Chong Wah (CW) 共五人。
简述:FANTASTIC!


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Pre-IS2005

整个IS 的过程都是难忘的,从开始到结束,每一个细节都另我难以忘怀,甚至有点感动。

先谈谈我们的队伍,不多,只有五人。我们彼此并不完全认识,我和RW 是在OX 认识,RW和WL及CW 是朋友,CW 和HW是大学同学,而我和HW 是中学同学,我们的关系就是如此联系的了。

第一次出来见面,好像有种像相亲的感觉,安排在大排档里约会(开会),大家都没见过大家, 我想我们就是少了那朵红玫瑰啊!

大家都心里有数,在真正能睬上一百公里之前,也该有些练习吧!其他成员不需练习也不成问题,可是说实话,我可真不行呢!想想现在里IS 只有一个月的时间,真糟糕,不禁开始担心和着急起来并开始怀疑自己的能力。我心想,无论如何我也必须付出比别人多两三倍的努力才能把信心召回。
第一次练习,队长WL 就选择了难度很高的Genting Sempah。为什么我会说难度高?尽管只有区区的14公里,可是踩着上山可不是好玩的。可怜的WL被逼紧跟在我后面 ,也真辛苦他了!最可怜的莫过于HW,走了二十多公里的冤枉路,最后才在云顶山脚的休息处会上我们。

下山的那种快感,实在过瘾无比,所有的疲累也抛到后头,之前有多辛苦都值了回来。
那天我足足睡了十四个小时。

醒来后忽然觉得很沮丧,最恐怖的是竟然蒙起了放弃的念头。心里听到一种声音在嘲笑我自己,之前的士气顿时消失得无影无踪。
挣扎了好几天,好不容易才捡回信心的碎片,重新整理过思维,安慰并鼓励自己,坚持要把脚车练好。

经过数次的练习后,虽然还达不到令人满意的结果,却也足以填满我的信心。
就在一次和RW到UM练习回来后,隔天就发现前轮泄了气。忽然我觉得不知所措,精神沮丧得快崩溃。别无他法,尝试自己换轮胎。赶紧摇了电话给脚车的主人求救,他就On-phone Support, 教我如何更换轮胎。这一次又是信心动摇的时候。
前轮爆胎还不止这一次,几天后练习以后又再重演,开始觉得情况不妙,肯定出了什么状况。于是决定把脚车送去阿明哪儿修理。

就在出发的前几个小时,到达阿明的脚车店,遇见Uncle Lim, Uncle Lim 慷慨的给了我不少的脚车贴士,就以一杯茶回馈。阿明把我的脚车修理好,心里头的大石头立刻就消失了。
还记得出发的前一天,心情糟糕的很,既担心又压力,拼命对脚车的主人哭诉,他就说:别人是高高兴兴的踏脚车去,只有你那么压力沮丧,那就别踏了。

说的也是,我当然不会放弃,可是心情就是不听话,紧张得眉头都皱了起来。
就这样,又期盼又紧张的IS就在这天黎明以前。

27082005,六


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Day 1 – 28th 08, 2005, Kuantan – Kijal (107 km)

凌晨四点半,我和RW来到HW家集合,大家赶紧做最后的检查及收拾东西。我领着WL驱车出发,RW,CW 和HW就踏着脚车到出发集合点,Vistana Hotel。
报道以后在剩余的时间里赶紧把香蕉啊,Power Bar啊之类的东西往口里塞。这一天由WL驾支援车。

凌晨六点钟,阵容浩大的我们有约百多人着了脚车的后灯,红红的闪光灯闪烁在漆黑的凌晨里,犹如大群大群的萤火虫在飞翔。

东海岸的路线我和HW俩地头虫熟悉不已,但这一次并不是采用平时车子所走的,我们遗弃了海岸线,沿着油棕芭的石油路前走。结果不到20公里,CW的后轮宣布平坦。开始由我更换轮胎,却怎么也弄不成,就刚好RW掉回头会上停在一旁的我们,而WL也恰好赶上我们,整支队伍五个人就半蹲站的在路边更换CW的轮胎。

(CW:还好只是爆胎,没有去年摔脚车那么严重,哈哈。。)

然后就继续上路。。
踩呀踩呀踩呀踩。。

整条路都是斜坡,又上又下,我已经气喘如牛,他们就越踩越过瘾,渐渐的我就被抛到后后后后头去了。再加上脚车忽然脱链,简直就像与世隔了绝。

大伙儿在50公里处休息兼等我,“Mind Set” 就是CW最爱的口头禅。说真的,这句话多多少少也起了不少作用。没人有要放弃的念头,包括我在内。

一路上WL走走停停,持着录像机拍拍我们的英姿。起码现在还算是英姿,再过不久某个上斜坡的镜头里,明显的看见大家那种愁眉苦脸和拉牛上树的样子,再看回画面的话肯定又再笑到肚爆。(尤其是我的那幕,WL喊我名字好几次我却没留过神来,很专注的集中精力一脚一踏的往前踩。最后才回过神来,敷衍的笑笑又消失在镜头里)

到了约85公里处,我们来到一个叫Kemaman的小镇,就到那间闻名的咖啡店休息和享用香浓的咖啡和烤面包。今天上阵的四人,除了CW还能咽得下美食外,RW,HW 和我的胃口都大大减少了。

吃饱喝足后就继续那仅剩的20公里。在最后的20公里,四人都靠得很紧的,原来Drafting可以如此美妙。

一路上我们都期盼看见草莓,有草莓的地方就是我们要去的地方。
终于看见了路牌写着Strawberry Kijal,我们欣喜若狂的,105公里,不过如此而已!

这一天的住宿是间公寓,共三间房。可悲的是必须把所有财产搬上三楼,更可悲的是后来才发现举办当局摆了乌龙,必须把所有财产从这三楼搬到另座的三楼。才冲了凉又汗满身。再更可悲的是竟然遇着那班野蛮无礼的人,不过值得庆幸的是,CW那一段得来不易的缘分就是这样展开了。。。CW还在凌晨十二点到别人的家拜访呢!(半夜三更跑到人家的家还能干吗?!)

其实CW只不过想找回那遗漏的洗刷用具吧了,你们脑袋在想什么呀?hahahahah….

下午最先由RW去做猪,接下来到WL和CW接班。我和RW及HW闲着便到外边走走,RW的小蜜蜂也跟了来。最后让我们发现了沙滩和那蔚蓝的海,真令人鼓舞,决定回去叫醒那两只猪出来嘻水。
整个沙滩上最吸引人的不是穿着泳衣的女人,而是在沙滩上看公司文件的大男人!(谁?不就是CW和WL啰!duh…)

晚餐后大伙儿又回到那拥有三辆价钱不扉的脚车的公寓,无所事事。最棒的那辆等值于一辆Kancil。

夜,无声。人,就寝。


28082005,日

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Day 2 – 29th 08, 2005, Kijal– Marang (133 km)

凌晨四点又起床了,匆匆整理好自己和包袱,又要把所有财产扛下三楼。
今天由WL上阵,我来驾驶支援车。

当我们在楼下集合时,CW的爱人也许太想念他要嗅着他的味道入睡,一大清早才把CW的洗刷用品还给CW。他们的缘分还没尽,好戏还在后头,不知是CW有心还是无意,又再自投其网,竟把自己的包包丢到那爱人的车厢里。后来怎样?待会儿再揭晓。。。


这一天的路线是甘榜,大路,小镇和海岸线,都是平坦路。这天少了我上阵,速度明显增加。不出两小时,大伙儿就到了56公里处的华人餐馆。看见大家那充满信心的样子,也真羡慕他们。

休息片刻后又在上路,我驾着那四轮驱动车,有点无聊,就在一个拐弯处,忽然看见蓝蓝一片海,吹着习习凉风,笑了。

心情变得好轻松,如果这一刻我也能骑着脚车慢踏那就好了。
我们在这儿拍了一些照,然后满足地继续上路。
他们四人像被什么激发了,越踩越兴奋,当遇上大群大群的脚车对时,立刻像小鱼儿般紧跟着大白鲨,躲在人群中由他们来挡风。

无惊无险的就踩了133公里,在12点以前到达了目的地,Anggullia Hotel,Marang。这一趟的平均速度大概也有30km/hr吧?

这一天的住宿是靠在沙滩旁的独立式木屋,在木屋的阳台里来一杯冰凉的椰水大概很清凉吧?

当我们去取回行李时,CW才发现大事不妙,包包并不是上了这辆车呀!想呀想,肯定的就在早上时误把包包丢上了‘爱人’的车。于是他开始唱起“我等着你回来,我等着你回来。。。” :P
但在我们要去用餐时他也还没有回来。
就说他们有缘分嘛!竟然两部车子在街上遇上了,CW就在那条街道上和他有着0.01公分的距离,领回属于他的包包。


由于5点就要拍全体照,也没多余的时间去嘻水
今天已是离开都市的第三天,WL有些惆怅的独自望海沉思。我们其余的四个年轻人就在沙滩上唱歌,主音有歌声美妙的CW和RW。

饭后我们所有五个年轻人到镇上走走。原本RW的小蜜蜂,今天却迷失了方向,反而飞到我这儿来。不知怎的忽然聊到一个女孩子,再聊下去竟然发现那女孩是HW的友人,聊出火了,不该说的都给听进去了。

回到住宿时HW消失了有整半小时。我们开始担心,便到沙滩去找他。还好,一切也还算风平浪静,我们就在沙滩上聊到下大雨为止才跑进屋里。
HW可说是双重打击,左手忽然失去灵活,害他担心不已。
又是深夜,五人挤进窝里睡。



29082005,一

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Day 3 – 30th 08, 2005, Marang – Batu Rakit (109 km)


今天七点出发,有多一小时的睡眠时间,我可开心得很。
我又要上阵了,心情还是很紧张。“Mind Set” 这个字又再次从CW的口中说出。
这一天也是有点斜坡的,甘榜路,一路上和道路两旁的小孩儿打招呼,他们开心的不得了。刚巧明天就是国庆日,丁州的子民都热爱国家,学校也浩浩荡荡的主办脚车行。我们和他们大班人马迎面而过,他们都露出天真无邪的笑容,挥挥手上的国旗与我们打招呼。我们也乐也融融的以甜蜜微笑回馈他们。

来到甘榜的令一段路,处处明摆玄机,我们四人不止一次中了招。最恶心的竟然是那从RW后轮卷起的飞来横祸,一片牛粪就这样不偏不倚的飞到我额头上!真是名副其实的中头奖哩。

太阳开始高照。

最后的二十公里,心里开始着急和矛盾,眼看就要到了,可是却怎么踩也没到尽头。当我们遇上吉兰丹州的骑士,RW又再想磁铁般地吃了进去。还在后头的我那有力来追上他们?还好有CW在前掩护着我(今天大部分都是他在最前线掩护着我们哟!)

渐渐来到倒数10公里,拐进了海岸线,海滨的风景又在眼前,实在棒极了!
Gem Resort,我们终于完成了整个行程。去到终点时HW和RW已在哪儿等着了。我和CW随后才到,然后WL也带着胜利的眼神在终点和我们回合。

整个行程里,唯有RW和CW连续作战三天,那种满足感是无法形容的。

进到酒店,心满意足,舒适的大房,来杯香浓的咖啡是最好不过的了!
洗澡以后便是SPA时刻,最幸福的莫过于CW,还是WL你好吔,唯有你没有替CW按摸。

这时,我还有点像时尚的日本妞,眼圈以外其他部分都是红红的。不过过了今天就变成印度西施了。

每一次去到沙滩一定要做的事情是:
1.嘻水,总之碰到海水就是了。
2.睡在沙滩上看星星。
虽然有点孩子气,但我还是坚持我的热诚。

夜里我们聚在沙滩上,我和HW索性就睡在沙滩上,虽然没有星星,但我还是好享受有海风吹,有海浪声,有歌声的片刻。
CW嘹亮的歌声有海浪声配和着,变成了漂亮的旋律。
WL的独唱:如果大海能够带走我的哀愁。。。
我的独唱:于是我叫我自己狠情歌,假装我不在乎。。。
还有:把我的悲伤留给自己,你的美丽让你带走。。。

夜深人静,五人加
上Richard ,也还能有舒适的床褥如睡,大概这一切也已经不再重要了吧?

30082005, 二

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Post-IS2005

我们这一团队,经过三天的作战,终于漂亮的胜出,战胜的不是别人,而是自己。
手牵手来唱一首快乐的圆舞曲:小蜜蜂,小蜜蜂,飞到东,飞到西。。。

THE END.

Inter State 2005-28082005-31082005

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26082005 以后

告别IITC 后,可说一切就从新开始。
报名参加了的脚车行也即将在明天展开。
这一次是真的完全放下所有包袱远行去,没有牵挂,没有忧虑。
犹如一条一丝不挂的鱼儿在海里游,又像一只轻盈的小鸟在天上飞。
随心所欲。

27082005,就是新的里程碑的开始。

星期二, 9月 06, 2005

26082005, Kiss me Goodbye…

This is one of the most memorable days in my life, my last day in IITC.
There were mixtures of feeling at the moment I was about to leave, felt sad, felt unbearable to leave all the wonderful friendships, felt loss, felt exciting…

This reminded me the Fool in the Tarot. Risks are always in the journey of the Fool and every journey is an adventure. No one knows what gonna happen next, he is brave to take the risk and taste the adventure, sometimes he may fall, but sometimes he achieved something that no one else can do.
I was like the Fool at the moment.

I had told myself, after stepping out of IITC, I became history in IITC, everything happened in IITC became memories. Some people I will never meet them again in the rest of my life, some incidents will never happen again in other place and time in the rest of my life too.

Mr. Gentleman, I was once your lover, but it turned to be like the bird flies in the sky and the fish swims in the sea, both will never have any interaction.
恩怨已绝,缘分也已绝。
飞鸟和鱼,谁也不打扰谁。
正如你所愿,不再有眼神的交流,就连擦肩而过的机会也不再存在。

Let’s friendship continues and ever lasting, let’s rivalship ends here and never meet.

星期五, 8月 19, 2005

One Night Stand or One Whole Life? 一夜情或一辈子?

One Night Stand or One Whole Life?

There was once when I was in South Thailand
I had a strong willing to go to the beach where there is a mermaid
I took about an hour bus
Lastly came to a small town
But I started to be panic
Because I couldn’t see any beach or sea….

The beach is suppose just beside the road if this town is nearby the sea
I asked around,
people given directions to me and I followed.

After a while of walking,
I found neither breeze from the sea nor the salty taste of the sea..
I was so tired and disappointed
At the moment when I was about to give up
I saw there was a different color of blue from the sky
It was deep blue
There was wave on top of the water
And it is sea!

I was so excited and just keep going despite of how tired I am
Because I strong realized I was at the correct path
As long as I keep going
I will be at the beach very soon.

Besides kept going, there was only kept going
Until my foot stepped on the sand and felt the sea
Only I was willing to take a rest.

The feeling was simply the great and obtained a strong satisfaction
It wasn’t a matter on how beautiful was the beach
It wasn’t a matter how clear was the water
It also wasn’t a matter is there a mermaid?
The most important was I’m here at the destination led by my strong will

So, if you ask me,
Even though I have been suffering by the Love
Can I love again?
Will I desire to love again?

Yes I will,
Definately yes.
And I’ll be more treasure the love, more understand how to love and will be a better lover than previous

Because I can strongly feel it
It is right at in front
Perhaps it is too far from me
But I realized it is at in front
I’ll just keep going
I’m sure I’ll be there one day.

So my answer is
To Love the Man for One Whole Life.


一夜情或一辈子?

有一次在泰南旅行
心里有一种莫名强烈的欲望想到那拥有美人鱼的海边
坐了约一小时的公巴
去到陌生的小镇

心里竟着急了起来
海呢?
海在那里?
如果这是靠海的小镇
海应该就在路的旁边
可是一路上我也没看见什么靠在路边的海岸呀!

来到市镇
东问西问的
人家指指点点,
我就朝着那应该就是有美人鱼的海边的方向走去。

越走就越远
可是连一丁点的海风也没吹到
咸咸的感觉也没有。。。

就在正想放弃的那一杀那
看见了与天不一样的蓝
那是宝蓝色
那是有涟漪的水
对,那就是海啊!

我兴奋极了
加快脚步不停的王前走
可是那条路还是像无尽头般
宝蓝色的海还是离我很远很远。

我只知道,只要朝着这个方向走,
我就可以到达心里想去的地方。
前方,正是这个前方。
不管有多累也一直往前走,
直到脚板触摸到沙,
才精疲力竭的坐下休息。
心里有着很大的满足感,
沙滩漂亮不漂亮
海水清澈不清澈
有没有美人鱼
都已经不再重要
最重要的是
我凭着那股强烈的欲望到达了目的地。

所以如果你问我
即使我在爱情里受了无尽伤害
我还能再爱吗?
还会再渴望爱情吗?

会,
肯定会。
而且还会更懂得爱、更懂得珍惜、并爱得比以前深,
因为我就是强烈的感觉到
爱情就在前方
也许它离我很远,
但它就在前方,
只要我不辞劳苦地往前走
总有一天
我一定会到达哪里。

所以,
我还是会选择一辈子。

星期二, 8月 16, 2005

Ten Thousand Times More


My mood is simply Ten Thousand times bluer than the deep blue sky
and the emotion is simply Ten Thousand times deeper than the deep blue ocean

The hurt and the pain that you have left to me is simply Ten Thousand times more than the love you gave to me.

I just want to tell you, Mr. ‘Gentleman’
I Love You...
but,
I Hate You is simply Ten Thousand times more than I Love You.

星期四, 8月 11, 2005

Gentleman?

This is the first time I heard someone calling you ‘gentleman’
I was so surprise…

All the while I was hoping and looking forward you to be a gentleman
who can take good care to all other ladies beside me
and be polite and smile to everybody surrounding you.
How many times have I complained this to you?


But nowadays,
you are so different.
I see a new brand you who have really improved a lot
I guess you have really let go everything,
or perhaps you think it’s not worthwhile to made yourself unhappy because of a woman you hate the most?

You will never know how suffer and how sad I am
because I'm neither in your eyes nor your heart.
Until today, or perhaps until the day I die,
I still have no idea why is this a choice for you to chase me away from your house
and what caused you to act so badly to me?

and this is called 'gentleman'?

We have to learn and grow
Let go and move forward
I’m not so sure am I ahead of you
I still have a very long journey for my transition stage.

Oh my dear,
my miserable life has just begun right after I stepped out from your house…

星期二, 8月 09, 2005

如何成功

好一个想呼吸的欲望竟能让你达至成功.

如何成功

一位年輕人想要追求成功之道,他聽說某處住著一名很有智慧的智者很懂得成功之道,
有許多人在這位智者的調教之下,都能步上成功之途。
因此他很想要去尋訪這位傳說中的智者,親自向他請教成功之道。
費盡千辛萬苦,他終於找到了智者。
年輕人:「智者,您可不可以教我如何做,或是具備什麼樣的條件才能成功?」
智者:「你想成功嗎?那跟著我走。」智者說完之後,也不理會年輕人的反應,逕自朝著海邊走去。
而這年輕人為了追求成功之道,自然是緊緊尾隨在後。
一直走著,走著。
智者竟引導這年輕人走進海裡面。
越往前走 水越深,水已經淹到胸部了,眼看著再走下去就要滅頂了。
突然間,智者將年輕人的頭用力地壓入水面下,年輕人奮力地掙扎,急於跳脫困境。
可是這智者一點也不鬆手。
約莫過了一分鐘,智者才把手鬆開。
年輕人立即跳出水面,深深地吸了好幾口氣。
「老傢伙,你想淹死我呀?」年輕人咆哮!
「如果你渴望成功的意志能夠像你剛剛想呼吸般地強烈的話,你就已邁向成功之路了。」 智者回答。

星期一, 8月 08, 2005

后会无期

这个早上如果你有机会见到我
你就会看见我那浮肿的双眼。

你是否开始觉得我有点懦弱?
可我已经接受这个事实,
是的
在某些时候

的确是有点懦弱。
尤其是在夜阑人静的时候
就是我最脆弱的时候。

我一直在回想
回想过去的恋情,
我好像在发了一场又一场的梦
在梦里被人狠狠地摔了一跤又一跤。
当重重的一跤被摔得好疼
才从梦中惊醒
这一跤又一跤
是情人们的报复。

于是我开始深思
发现他们是敌亦是师
在磨练我教我如何成为一个好情人。
最可惜的是
当我开始知道如何成为一个好情人时
他们都已经不在我身边
没能享受那种福气
也真为他们叹息。

这到底是我错过了他们呢,
还是他们错过了我?


当我们还年少时
也许有很多梦想
也拼命的追求理想情人。
可是当年纪越来越大
再加上恋爱经验丰富后
那种像年少时对恋爱的热诚就已经不再。
也许你现在的情人
不是你最爱的
而只不过是你最需要的
或甚至
她只不过是来弥补你空虚寂寞的日子而已。

之前的什么山盟海誓恩恩怨怨
再掘出来谈也已无济于事
唯有以一笑置百之。

保重吧我的情人们
也许我们不会有再会
却祝福你会更幸福。
我会把你们所给予的教训
受惠于下一个情人。

08082005。0045 (失眠的夜)

星期三, 7月 27, 2005

如果这是一个持剑时代,
我一定会持着我的剑,
去到你面前,
割喉自杀死在你眼前。。。
不是因为我爱你,
而是因为我.恨.你.

星期二, 7月 12, 2005

过渡期 - Transition Stage

每个人生总有好几个转捩点
每个转捩点总需要一个过渡期 – Transition Stage
而每个过渡期总需要极大的勇气和力量
驱使你前进与反弹。

真正的前进是放下所有已往的包袱,
真正的反弹是从沮丧中苏醒,
蜕变以后活得更坚强、更美丽、更有自信。

包袱其实像个无形的海绵
附属在你的心里
泪掉下来就蒸发吗?
不,却流到了心湖
完完全全被海绵吸收得膨胀沉重。
眼角的那道泪痕
便是通往心湖海绵的河床。
心里没有太阳,海绵永远不会枯干

反弹就是把丝毫的阳光引进心湖
当心湖碰上阳光
就会有彩虹
多年累积的阳光会慢慢把海绵的水蒸发
使海绵变干
使心轻盈

收集阳光,储蓄能量,
就是过渡期最重要的过程。

星期二, 6月 28, 2005

夜班飞机

星星几乎难寻
更别说流星
只好等待夜班飞机
慢慢划过长空
悄悄许个愿。

星期一, 6月 27, 2005

六月的出走

说什么出坡公干
其实只不过是在找个出走的理由。

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

我以为这一次出走
会离你远一些
却在走之前
把灵魂遗留在你家
即使天涯海角
却还感觉到你的温柔。

终于承认
不管逃到哪儿
只要我还不把你放下
你依然还在我心里。

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

实在好奇怪
一路上
好像有一只天使在为我打点一切

坐在沙滩上写着笔记
有个老阿么走过来
对我说着我不熟悉的泰语
摊开了我的手掌
指了指我的智慧线
就顶起了拇指说好!

到底是谁
遣派了这一只天使?

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

走在这陌生的街道上
却发生了意外
我给意外吓呆了
就呆在别人的挡口前
惆怅了好几分钟
因为遇见了
那棒棒糖。

那是我们相识后
你送我的第一份礼物,
橙色的棒棒糖。
曾经
我把它收藏了好久好久
都舍不得吃。
最后在迫不得己的情况下
忍痛地把它丢掉了。

犹豫着要不要把它买下
结果用了五泰币
买下彼此逐渐淡忘的甜蜜。

那一晚
想念你得无法自拔
泪水留了又如何
最后也只不过会留下难看的泪痕?

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

每个人的心中
都有一个安全的避风港
那就是家。
一路走来
心中真正的家只有一个
就是不小心把灵魂留下的那一个。

今天
我忽然想得很清楚并下定决心
要呼唤那迷路的灵魂。
回到“家” ,对灵魂说:
干吗还要像一只被遗弃的流浪狗
傻傻地期待主人的呼唤
渴望回家?
别再逗留在不属于你的地方。
那儿已经没有给你的空缺
那空缺已被一个女孩填满。
跟我走吧,
天涯海角也别再回来。

我不断独自流浪旅行
浪迹天涯是为了忘记你

浪人何来家?
浪人无家处处家。

26062005 ~ 泰南的旅后

星期五, 6月 17, 2005

千言万语

作曲:古月 作词:尔英

不知道为了什么

忧愁它围绕着我
我每天都在祈祷
快赶走爱的寂寞
那天起
你对我说
永远地爱着我
千言和万语
随风云掠过